A patient reader has been asking about a certain theme for a while now (this is for you, friend in Belgium!) – the matter of being STUCK. We’re not talking about a minor inconvenience, i.e., a few days pass without the big “aha” you need to bring your current project to completion, or even accessing the inspired juice to get it started in the first place. Not an optimal predicament, when income depends on your delivering the goods; also not likely an “end of the world” issue, either.
The stuckness I will endeavor to address here is the kind that can keep us frozen in place for months, even years, on end… with still no clue appearing on the horizon as to what we “should” be doing. I’m aware of many in this weird boat without a rudder. This is also a torment that I personally know all too well; it came upon me immediately following what was arguably the most profound and luminous experience of my life: a kind of “grand finale” absorption into a field of living light, following years of living with active kundalini. To this day I wonder WHY things happened the way they did; I have yet to reach the part of the script that reveals all the answers! (More of my personal story relative to this theme is offered in the post, Kundalini: Not a Game, which is how “part 2″ of this post eventually manifested.)
Profound stuckness involves a disorientation and immobility, quite possibly to the point of being frightening, especially when you have responsibilities to fulfill, and relationships to maintain – and who doesn’t? It is as though your inner compass just… loses all resonance with any semblance of north — or any direction for that matter. Nothing seems to be magnetizing anything—how can it be, when “reality” is based on magnetic energies??! (Sidebar: Planetary magnetics are changing, profoundly! The little crystals in our pituitaries that tend to keep us oriented within the energies of the matrix are probably undergoing reprogramming in response to these changes. Crystals DO reprogram according to their environs…) Not only might nothing motivate you; you may barely be able to connect with anything, in form or consciousness, longer than a few seconds of ticking time. It can feel like being unplugged from life itself – life as we’ve always experienced it, that is. Incidentally, I am *not* talking about depression, as much as the above description may resemble depression. No; depression is another thing. (I know both; neither is fun, but this stuckness does not have the lingering signature of sadness.)
My effort to discuss this topic may seem wobbly, and some ideas may not be appreciated by all, particularly those who choose to cling to the notion that the material world is the only “real” world there is. Nonetheless, I am here to beam out my truth – on the planet, in this life, as well as in this blog! Same goes for everyone; one size/shape/color/flavor does not suite all. If these missives aren’t for you, go forth and “unfold your own myth,” as Rumi wisely advises in the previous post.
First off: something beyond hyoooge is in progress; something of intergalactic measure and significance. At levels our conscious minds can’t even grok, we are deep into processing many thousands of years of lifetimes and their karma (among other things currently going on behind the scenes), NOW. We are at the end of one age and the beginning of another, and the incoming one will bear precious little resemblance to what we’ve known for eons of time. I’m speaking about an ascending planet now… being vibrationally recalibrated to an extent to which all life upon it must shift – literally & physically, not just in our thoughts – up into a totally Other spectrum of existence. This is a massive epoch; if you don’t know what I’m talking about… well… I don’t know how you found your way HERE, for one thing… but if you are interested to learn more, you might start searching some of the terms listed in the tags and category clouds to the right of the blog here.>>> My point is, an assimilation is going on now, at levels we can’t fathom. The (formerly coherent) energy which IS US is being fragmented through so many prisms, systems, filters, dimensions, lifetimes, frequencies, etc etc… it’s NO WONDER that focusing on—or even identifying—a mundane goal or task, or even registering a flicker of interest in something ordinarily palatable can be next to impossible. This is like having ADD amplified to the Nth!
We are in a bridge time currently; literally straddled between two worlds in mid quantum leap.
The one we’ve known for millennia is being dismantled around and THROUGH us. Many of us are engaged in “training” for this transition in other realms; of this I am certain for myself, while also living in a state of trust rather than having concrete proof to back what I say. We are in an unimaginable shift, one that penetrates every plane, sub-plane, and living entity (human, animal, vegetable, mineral… AND any earthbound spirits… speaking of stuck!) in this universe. With so much going on energetically (dismantling a reality -> no trivial pursuit), MANY of us are now orienting more toward this process (often at levels beyond conscious awareness, but impacting us nonetheless) than we are with the vagaries of the mundane, which we no longer really relate to, as we are unplugging from a realm that is fast becoming a vibrational relic.
Imagine your physical self in the 3D world, and then superimpose an image of your energy body being pulled upward into a far nicer existence, and you might get a sense of what I’m talking about. Your lightbody is already plugging in to the New. Eventually it will draw your physical body with it (again, if you choose; it happens to be my unbridled desire to make this move), as the atmosphere around us continues to shift upward into higher, clearer, rarified frequencies and we transmute more and more of our density – which I sense is directly related to how much karmic gunk we continue to hold — possibly manifesting as a major ordeal involving many old issues hitting the fan with force, clamoring for attention and final healing. This is happening systemically, obviously, as well as personally. Tune in to one of the “year in review” programs on television as 2008 comes to an end; it’s one of the clearest ways to see without a doubt that our structures and systems are coming apart. I mention this not to raise fear, but rather to underscore that we are witnessing the dissolving of much getting plowed under in a great preparation for seeds of The New coming to be sown.
Strange as some of what I say may sound, this is what I see happening, and continuing to happen, long after voices like mine “reporting the news” have become mere redundance; it will be obvious for all to SEE and BE and KNOW. It is becoming more and more obvious. Those who choose not to ride this wave (ie, allow their density to keep pace with the planet’s, which is a matter of choice) will likely simply leave their bodies (die) when the vibrational mismatch hits a certain threshold, and (from what I understand) will probably continue reincarnating in the physical for as long as they “believe” they must. WHERE subsequent incarnations might occur is a big question pondered by many, as earth is heading into a huge cleansing period, and will supposedly “house” a very small fraction of the current population for centuries, while this is period of planetary rest and ‘refresh’ goes on.
All such things considered, is it any wonder that many, many people who tend to ‘vibe’ more toward the spiritual, and are innately more sensitive to energies around them, are feeling deeply disoriented currently, and don’t SEE their next thing? What we are feeling is the very cells of our being vibrating strongly; sometimes in steady “hums,” sometimes in distinct waves... always a very, very palpable sensation that something is “microwaving” our bodies – in this case, in a good way; it’s the influx of these potent energies pouring in from the galactic center, here to trigger this shift. They are REAL, they are divinely driven, and they are AFFECTING us to our depths. At street level, it’s kind of like being yanked from one assignment before being given the next, leaving us in a lurch… at least in a way our conscious minds can understand. What many don’t realize is the massive amount of work going on at other levels, and AT NIGHT, when the body and ego rest. This is when a huge amount of higher-realm training and other work goes on. It WILL become clear when the timing is correct for us to “get” it; lest we forget, God’s timing is not dictated by clocks and calendars. For now, faith and trust are the tickets to hold.
Keep in mind, your conscious awareness is just the very tip of a massive, trans-dimensional iceberg in a holographic, intergalactic ocean. There are aspects of us that most of us can’t begin to even fathom from our ‘ordinary consciousness’ perspective. I may be a tad more aware of other levels because of my lifelong tendency to travel out-of-body into other realms… which has sort of evolved in more recent years to include a more direct “phasing” from one realm to another, by which I mean, without having to “fly the distance,” it’s more a spontaneous shift of awareness. (I don’t have a lot of control over this, like dialing the phone, at this point! ~It’s just something I’ve noticed happening. I don’t have all the answers at my beck and call!) We are all moving closer to these ‘spiritual abilities,’ tho, and may I iterate yet again, our context is a vast hologram; we can just click in and out of various points within it, with conscious intention to do so… and before long we will all “remember” how!
I’ve had many experiences that point to all of what I say here; I’m not just regurgitating the latest “channel” from wherever. While writing the piece on my kundalini experiences (mentioned in last post), I was amazed by the array of my own adventures, rediscovered when ferreting through journals to dig up vignettes for the book. It adds up to *quite* a story ~ a minute fragment of which can be shared in the piece that will be published. I know: it’s MY story, and no one should swallow everything I (or anyone) says whole, if it doesn’t resonate. I simply share my tales in case they DO.
Back to stuckness: I thought I’d mention a few situations that can contribute to the condition in these rip-roaring (or reality-ripping) times. I will just lay a few ideas out briefly; I’m way into overtime as it is here. But I list the following, for your consideration.
If you’re currently feeling “stuck,” are you… hedging your bets, trying to straddle two situations, while not committing to either? This could be about employment, or absence of same; it could be about a relationship that has energetically expired, or its energy is chronically dragging you down, but you are neither shifting nor releasing it. It could ALSO be about the changes upon us all, currently–the great shift; what side of the fence do you stand on re: this? If you feel the truth of this event in your heart, but your mind rejects it and judges it ridiculous—you could be planting your feet in wet cement (there’s a 3D image ;). It took me a year to start blogging about this stuff; I was concerned about the extreme weirdness factor. Same issue re: having little talks about it around town. But I finally had to go with my heart, which knows it is happening. And so far, any little crucifixions I’ve encountered re: my beliefs have been bearable.
Maybe letting it go is how it will heal. Maybe consciously forgiving someone for “doing you wrong” – that someone maybe even being yourself – is the energy that needs to move to unstick you. Look around, take stock. What is holding you back in your daily life? Are you maintaining a comfortable complacency instead of taking a risk at moving yourself toward a beckoning unknown?
This new energy needs clarity; it is a cleansing agent, and a accelerator. It is calling us (hauling us!?) into a state of ever-unfolding synchronicity and flow; that’s what it IS. If we hold onto sticky old stuff, physically or emotionally, when the truth of our heart has been beating the drum to change something, we are obstinately trying to defy divine momentum that has come to move us forward, into a much more expanded, enlightened mode of being.
I’m exhausted; I’ve been planted here all day. Lest you not realize, hours of time goes into writing these posts, even “drafty” ones as this is currently, but I’m posting it anyway; will probably tweak it over the coming days. I will speak more to the matter of stuckness in part 2… which may or may not happen immediately!
It’s Christmas Week, and solstice today~ perhaps spend the next few days visioning what you really would love to see happening – in your life, and Life on Earth, as an interwoven unit. 2009 will be a riot; the spin on the phrase depends to a large extent on how we collectively proceed! Our collective intentions for peace and light and all the blessings possible on this planet do influence outcomes. The more old crap we cling to (from little grudges and less-than-sincere games all the way through the spectrum to the biggest transgressions), the more cleansing we will be forcing the earth to take on, herself. Let’s all do our parts… and moooove forward!