GUT REHAB; STRUCTURE COMPROMISED
Many are in search of ways to *launch* their kundalini. It seems all the rage now, to want this experience under one’s belt. Actually, I understand this craving for such an out-of-the-box experience, but I cannot warn you enough: this is not a thrill to be pursued like the latest recreational drug.
Kundalini is serious business, very serious; you become engaged with the fires of Divinity Itself — fires that can very easily burn you OUT if you are not prepared for such an occurrence (and I have doubts as to whether one CAN prepare for this particular event). Like any fire, kundalini can rage out of all control (all control by YOU, as kundalini can easily assume control OVER you). In fact, if a person is running around seeking a kundalini awakening as tho it is the next “high” on their agenda, chances are good that it will not be a joy ride on the bliss train.
It’s my belief that kundalini is activating in more and more people currently because our entire planet is being recalibrated vibrationally, which is the behind-the-scenes reason why so much lower-level, dense crap is being shaken out of every nook and cranny now. Everything — everything — that is not in high integrity, not aligned with the Good of All, is careening toward its expiration date. You might imagine this as Shiva the Destroyer clearing the deck so that Shakti can come in and inspire the New, the Healed, the Whole.
Kundalini is also known as Shakti… Shakti in a powerfully directed form. Actually, kundalini in my experience is more of a “figure 8″ ongoing flow of exchange between destruction and recreation. The fire burns out a layer of blockages (which can be anything from emotional pain to physical problems to deep karmic issues that haven’t even been recognized consciously as yet, in body, mind or spirit) … and then a wave of healing and enlightenment may come in on a mission to create anew in one’s psyche, or body. And, repeat. Considering we have all been through many, many karma-accruing lives at this point, to have all that crap hit the fan en masse, as tends to happen when kundalini takes over one’s life, can be completely derailing, even debilitating.
Here’s a story from my own life that seems an apt metaphor to share on this subject. Actually, it seems a harbinger to what came next for me, re: kundalini!
About 13 years ago, my family home (where I grew up) ignited in an electrical fire around 3AM one frigid night. My father had just died a few months prior to this, leaving my mother alone and asleep upstairs while this fire blazed hot and fast downstairs. The house went up like a match. Mom was trapped in her bedroom, burned badly, and died later in the hospital. The most dread event of my life had come to pass in the most horrific way imaginable.
The house — a wood frame construction — was a hideous burned-out hulk. The whole back end had to come down altogether, leaving the house standing completely split-in-half open for all to see, like a giant, charred dollhouse. This in itself was heart-breaking, as the sanctity of a home that housed a family for decades was now literally hanging open for all to gawk at and pilfer through, as the rear wall came down while the contents of the building were still inside. All the siding was also stripped off the rest of the structure, to make way for new siding to (eventually) go up in the most extensive reconstruction a house could go through, without being completely razed to the ground first. So for months the house stood like this, depressingly stripped to its barest, burnt bones.
That fire, and the way my sweet mother died, and the agonizingly slow process of all that happened in the wake of the fire, with estate legalities and insurance matters and siblings arguing about all of it was a multi-layered trauma that took years to get through, and then more years to get PAST.
Now: imagine the above scenario happening to your body, soul, and life.
Imagine a fire igniting in you over which you have no control. You were ‘asleep’ when it started and now find you are powerless to stop or avoid it. The home of all that is familiar to you — the body you wear, the memories you hold, the love you knew, the relationships you had, and the very ways you related and interrelated with life in general — all gets burned away. Someday, a garden may grow where the structure that was your life once stood. But it may well be years–even decades!–before the debris and weeds are cleared, and sprouts of the New can reach for the sun.
Kundalini CAN DO THIS — EFFORTLESSLY.
I’m not saying it WILL. Every kundalini experience depends on the exact composition of elements (in the trans-lifetime history of the soul involved) being purged by the energy. If someone’s been saintly and selfless for his last 20 lifetimes, for instance, then perhaps a kundalini awakening will simply be a final bestowal of grace, with no blockages (karmic issues) to be detonated resolved along the way. There are some people for whom kundalini brings no problems, only ‘love, bliss, and clarity.’ The only one I ever met with this outcome had practiced yoga and lived snug in an ashram for 25 years. Which, incidentally, does NOT inherently mean she’d “naturally” have a beautiful experience. Because someone lives at the feet of a guru does not automatically mean they are enlightened or purified souls. It’s just as common for such a person to never have their own experience, because they are only looking to their guru, as opposed to forging their own personal connection with divinity. But I digress…
My advice: DO NOT CASUALLY PLAY WITH MATCHES.
If you are on a reverent spiritual path,
if your soul yearns for its creator, if you feel in your essence that you are in this life to — once and for all — finish your earthly karma and ascend to the next plane of existence, then please, please, proceed with responsibility, reverence, and caution.
By this I mean, take care of your body with clean and vibrant food. Meditate on the Divine (which is not the same as visualizing what you want, a la The Secret) and open the door of your heart in devotion to the God In All, while closing it to lower or darker distractions. Love rampantly! Monitor your thoughts and re-route them when they are not the thoughts of a thoroughly compassionate being, as God is — as we ARE representatives of the Divine here on earth.
By taking a spiritually disciplined approach to your life, you are inherently beginning a “cleanse” of the lower self in gradual preparation to Meet the Divine.
I’m not saying I followed the above advice consistently, particularly after that fire, and all the loss and pain it brought. I have my share of ‘shews. I have been utterly preoccupied with God and the spiritual most of my life, as well. My lifelong wealth of mystical experiences led me to study related materials to better understand what it was all about. I didn’t emerge fresh out of some nightclub, spin around, and buy a ticket for the kundalini express. I ALSO did not have an easy time of it! I’m still integrating it to this day, in fact.
Adolescents obsessed with violent video games and horror flicks are not planting seeds for the new Eden. I’m just using this age and mindset as an example, no offense intended ~ we’ve all been teenagers! My point is, it’s been said, and it’s true, that the magnificent and infinite power/energies of God HAVE to be stepped down through the various realms before they reach us in highly diluted form here on earth. Otherwise we’d incinerate in their presence. I’m suggesting it’s prudent to intentionally “step yourself up” vibrationally to begin to resonate and integrate with the higher energies coming in. Kundalini IS a divine energy that can incinerate overwhelm clueless people who seek its activity in their lives, with no proper preparation.
Even with YEARS of yoga and meditation behind them, some won’t experience awakened kundalini — it’s simply not in their souls’ timing to do so yet. For others, kundalini revs up without warning and they have a fluttery flurry of “energies” in their bodies (which is actually prana moving in the lesser channels rather than full-out kundalini in the central channel), and then hop online to “sell kundalini” to the masses, which is SO IRRESPONSIBLE, it is beyond reprehension. Someone says “I had an Awakening, it was GREAT! For $250 I can help you have the same!” and people go like moths to the flame and perhaps lose all health and sanity because they got succored in to finding hell when they wanted a cheap pass into heaven. There is NO SUCH THING.
As I said in the beginning, kundalini is becoming more available, because vibrationally the entire planet is lifting. HOWEVER, kundalini is not a game or a thrill to be pursued. It’s not like, “Oh, we had fun with The Secret; now let’s play with kundalini, cuz Beth’s cousin did it and now she can read the akashic records.”
The Divine Fire is as serious as it gets. I know. I have “signed up” for an intense journey in this life; it’s all been about the inner planes and all the ‘old demons’ that have been sucking energy from them, over lifetimes. I’ve had two kundalini activations: one circa 1990, the other around the year 2000. This second one (the Big One) went on for years, and like this story of the house, my body, psyche and soul have gone through some seriously trying and miserable periods. Granted, elements of insight and enlightenment were interspersed as well. But after the energies leveled out… I was left with no idea re: how to relate to the ashes of my “past (former) life.” I have been in a long, slow (can’t be pushed or rushed; impossible!) ‘new construction’ process for years. I may outwardly resemble the woman who was “taken” by kundalini years ago. But inside, in my creational center, I’ve had to begin from scratch, with no magnetic core left (my former ego) to ‘pull in’ the usual life components (ranging from work to social and recreational interests) that would be conducive for continuity. This has been my “stuck in neutral” experience that I alluded to in a post a few months ago but didn’t get into then. As you can now see, it’s a major topic to take on.
Whew. This is quite a rant, but I’m posting it nonetheless. May it serve some of the many who find this blog by googling “how can I awaken my kundalini?” Be very careful what you ask for.