“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest Souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.” – Khalil Gibran
Although we are all born with Souls, not all of us know how to fully embody them and integrate them into our human experience. The truth is that in our modern world, we live Ego-centrically rather than Soul-centrically.
What might happen after one’s kundalini rises? We’re not talking about the next day, like a hangover. We’re talking months, maybe years, maybe indefinitely throughout this life. A deep dance with kundalini creates deep, undeniable change – possibly (imo probably) permanently.
Something prompted me to check around YouTube for kundalini-related videos this morning; something I haven’t done in years. I was surprised to find this young woman (I’m guessing mid-20s?) possessing the breadth of awareness she has re: profound spiritual awakening and the typical 1-2 aftershocks of ego loss and a dark night of the soul. She obviously knows of what she speaks first hand. Continue reading →
This post actually has nothing to do with the moon that reached its max today. I basically put “full moon” in the title to place this post in time. A tad.
I’ve been wanting to share a few random tidbits. Lately I find myself receiving more personal contact from people with questions about my take on events (or lack thereof), or seeking more info about me personally. This flurry has had me typing a lot more than I have in a while, and I tend to peter out after transmitting a few hundred words in any direction. Maybe sharing a few things on the blog will give interested parties a sense of my journey at this juncture.
Like so many, I seem to be in a shift. This has been going on for years (much of which has been more like stuck gears than shifting ones) but lately I seem to be coming into a new phase. Not sure where it’s going; just sharing the free-form ride of the moment with you here! Continue reading →
Today I’m sharing a recorded live stream by a woman who, when spotting her in my youtube subscriptions feed, I had forgotten who she was. But her video title pulled me in, considering my recent post about craving more honesty/integrity/truth in general in this world.
Any change, as wisdom suggests, begins with me.
So here we have Lana Shafler, a law of attraction coach. In a way she (no offense, Lana!) represents a “type” that can turn me off – very live-wire and rah-rah about the LOA, and eager to “coach you.” I think I hit my max on the extreme motivator (and coach) type of energy after working in the field of it for years. (“Field” being a double entendre in this case.) Much of it didn’t feel authentic, but rather, an applied mask to ride a popular self-help wave.
So, perhaps there’s some of my jadedness showing. :-}
On the other hand, in fairness, there can be healing found in adopting a fake it til you make path in whatever endeavor one chooses to forward one’s way into success.
Lisa Transcendence Brown is on fire in this latest dialog with Lauren Galey of Quantum Conversations. I admire Lisa’s overall courage coupled with her gift for FLOW as she describes her perspectives re: what ascension is all about, what to expect, and what to allow andaccept.
The blurb follows; link to audio below blurb. ¡LOVE! W
We are in the most important and powerful vibrational, energetic “time” ever, where Pure Unity Love Consciousness REALities are achievable by each. The beauty of “REALity” is that all is exactly as we allow it and create it to be. Dictated by our DNA, we clear unconscious DNA programs while activating higher consciousness DNA that awakens all new realities for all. Opening Portals and traveling the Initiatory Passageways to walk through those Gateways is how we do all.
Now everyone can CHOOSE what realities they DO desire to experience and actually HOLD the vibration, the vision, focus their own energy consciously through expanded consciousness in order for those realities to materialize faster and easier, due to the immensity of electromagnetics in our inner and outer atmospheres for the Unified Field to “return” a vibrational response in the most “magical” and beautiful ways! Continue reading →
Posting another kundalini video conversation with Brooke Robertson. Her blurb follows:
As we move from our old identity many things will be stripped away from us that defined us in that old identity. It may be that the attachments strip away, or the actual forms, or both.
But in this stripping away we can feel so lost and so empty – lost at sea with nothing that excites or drives us anymore – are you coming into the reality of yourself? When I speak of aloneness I am not talking about isolation or detachment in those ways. I am talking about not using anything to make it better for you.
I can’t say I fully understand what just happened vis-à-vis the eclipse we just experienced the other day, but something really knocked me for a loop!
How are you doing? :-}
(Sidebar: this graphic isn’t a great match for the post but I got a kick out of it so… voila! If I could edit it, I might change it to creativity/combustion/confusion, or maybe combustion/chaos/creativity! )
(Sidebar #2: video of Lisa Brown’s perspective re: shifting from the old matrix to the New included below.)
So: on August 21st (day of eclipse) we had a big black cloud roll right over the line-of-sight of the “show” the moment the eclipse was starting, and it stayed there the entire time, producing a rain shower for good measure. All around/above this sudden cloud were chemtrails. So my viewing of this event was by way of what I saw online, which, I must say, got totally bizarre. Continue reading →
Ego death is something with which I have profound and lasting experience, which I will write about one of these days. I admit to a bit of reluctance to return to the intensity of that space to accomplish this. It’s one of the most impactful things that can happen to a person’s psyche and sense of self, IMHO – aspects of which are luminous to the extent of sensing perfect bliss and divine union, while others can be frightening, disturbing, or at the very least, disorienting.
Meanwhile, here’s a ride on the subject by Jana Dixon, one of the most prolific and deep-diving writers on kundalini around currently – author of the tome, Biology of Kundalini. Even if you only get through the first few paragraphs of her article, I’m thinking you’ll be enriched for it. ox Whitehawk
The ego protects us from full knowledge of the shadow and to the extent that it does this it also blocks us off from super-consciousness as well.
The ego disappears in these extreme experiences because of the extreme energy going through the hindbrain, sensory-motor cortex and limbic brain. Especially in extreme fight-flight chemistry the prefrontal lobes are disengaged in order for the more instinctive parts of the brain to deal with the danger. During such a spiritual emergency however the sense danger is internally generated. Often the autonomic shock is many times greater than that which we could ever experience in the normal course of a human life.
Just as a virgin only has a limited grasp of what it is to be human prior to having sex, so to those who have not experienced the ecstatic inner-conjunction or a Dark Night also have a limited perception of the height and depth of reality. These extreme events in consciousness make the ego more sober, respectful and humble because of this reorientation of what it is to be Human. This adjustment is largely biochemical. There is both vast expulsion of stored tension-energy and extensive reconstruction of the brains hardware that is brought about by these events. And it is this chemical, energetic and experiential reformation, which leads to what we know as Ego Death… whereas really it should be known as an expansion of the tight boundaries of the Ego to encompass a larger felt-sense of humanization.
What is Ego Death?
Ego death represents the neurodetoxification of fossilized repression, removing the friction and futile cycling of the nervous system, allowing a higher pattern to form. Continue reading →
Are will and ego the same thing? My current personal exploration on the subject of will brought me to this article, which I’m sharing for its potential value re: clarification of terms. I found it quite illuminating!
This is not Part 2 of Right Use of Will, but serves as a useful supplement to the conversation, imho. oxW
Q: Isn’t a strong ego a requirement for success in anything, including spiritual practice?
Often people think they need a strong ego to live successfully in the world and to be successful in their spiritual endeavors. This is not true. We cannot be successful in either the external world or the internal world while we are tossed about by a powerful ego. What success in both realms requires is a strong will.
The difference between ego and will is that the ego is blind, while the will has vision. Will has its source in the pure Self. Ego springs from a false sense of identification (avidya) with the external world, and is usually concerned with preserving self-image and self-identity. Ego is characterized by stubbornness, selfishness, and an unwillingness to compromise.
The ego is like a little pool.
An egotistical person crouches in that little pool like a frog—his world is small, his borders insecure. He has only a vague awareness of the grove of trees surrounding his pool, and he cannot even imagine the frog-filled marshes just beyond. From his perspective, only his own feelings and voice are meaningful.
But the power of will is like a spring whose source is the Pure Being.
Will infuses the mind and body with enthusiasm, courage, curiosity, and the energy to act. In yogic literature this force—the intrinsic power of the soul—is called iccha shakti, and it is from this force that all the various aspects of our personality, including the ego, receive the energy to carry out their activities.
I have so much on my mind relative to this matter of *will,* this post took on a will of its own and began growing too long too fast! So this will be the first of two, maybe even three, parts. I’ve realized in recent months that so many situations needing healing trace back to this matter of will and how various people tend to use theirs, so discussing it seemed the thing to do.
Will has actually been a theme of ongoing learning for me, my entire life. As a little girl growing up in a male-dominated family of “dramatic big people,” I lived amid strong-willed yang energy blasting regularly at high volume. Willful battles featuring loud, demeaning exchanges between my father and brothers were routine. Verbal abuse was the arsenal, with the target’s self-esteem firmly fixed in the cross-hairs. This was apparently my father’s misguided, old-school idea of how to dominate and control his kids… including me, too, when my teens years came along.
As you can imagine, what this accomplished was interpersonal alienation, hard feelings, and troubled relationships – not only within the family, but beyond it as well. And as much as I really hate to admit it, I also became skilled at verbal evisceration if pushed far enough. I can’t remember the last time I’ve actually let loose like that, but I can think of a couple of likely scenarios! It pains me to even think that there were times I felt so raw that I’d lash out with such acidic intention. When not managing will properly, a typical outcome for me was to let someone push and push with their bullying behavior until I’d finally explode in exactly the wrong way.