Karma, Sex & Those Gnarly Thoughtforms

Here’s one from the archives that seems fitting to repost in tandem with the Violet Flame message I (re)posted earlier (that initially went out without a title – oops!). I was pretty charged about this at the time; my circumstances then definitely prompted the post. Perhaps it will serve someone today.

by Whitehawk

Unless one is an advanced spiritual initiate practicing meticulous lightbody hygiene, a huge array of thoughtforms accumulate in the human energy field. Often, clairvoyants can see them clustered around a person. They are just there, in everyone, like a cage full of various pets (or pests), tending to influence (or wreak havoc on) a life in such a variety of ways, they can become quite capable of taking over as a person’s primary navigation system, for better or worse, depending on prevailing themes.

feminine surrenderThoughts are indeed things (or beings, even), verrry powerful once they are loosed by a fertile mind — especially if energized by strong emotion — and verrry magnetic to more of the same. They broadcast invitations to resonant others to come join them and their beneficent host/creators, being us, sometimes to the point of burning down the house with their explosive potentialities.

They can also be likened to viruses, reproducing exponentially in the operating system of a life, as we cluelessly, sloppily, and naively obsess over various dramas in which we participate — in starring roles, as supportive cast, or “merely” as hooked voyeurs — all of which are investments of the energy of our attention. Of course, if one’s thoughts are 100% pure, loving and godly… then hey, no problem! But this post isn’t about that blessed state.

Consider that one destiny of these highly charged and magnetic thoughtforms can be the inception of addictions: ie, to the way one feels under the influence of a drug, or a person (ie guru or celebrity supplication/ worship are prime examples… or just a compelling peer connection), or sex. Sex is hugely powerful; ground zero in the “nuclear neighborhood” of the lower chakras. It is a portal to the divine if worked with in frequencies of high love and/or sacred intent. In the intoxicatingly charged dominant/ submissive dynamic between particularly aligned (or misaligned) male/ female polarities, it can be an ignition sequence for losing all control before you know what hit you if you don’t practice concerted management of your faculties. Continue reading


What Will Replace Patriarchy?

Looking into the saga of male dominance

I found this interview between Gaia’s Regina Meredith and author/counselor Zeus Yiamouyiannis, PhD (!) interesting, engaging, and just plain enjoyable to watch. If you’ve found the matter of true and deep connection with the opposite sex (or polarity) daunting, this might be for you.

The fact that Zeus is Regina’s husband was a fun surprise to me, right off the bat. A dynamic duo, they are: two people doing the good work of expanding consciousness (and love :) join forces and beam out to us from Sedona. Zeus seems to me an aware, articulate, high-vibe and good-humored man (known as “Dr Zeus”), and as such has earned a place on this esteemed blog. Such an honor! ;)

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Awash In Eros

What I’m about to share with you I experienced four months ago. I’ve had this post started and sitting in draft form for some time because, well, it’s a tricky subject, and in all honestly I’m not clear how it will progress (it being what I’m involved in—in higher planes—in its early stages of emergence), and where we’ll end up with this phenomenon I’m about to discuss.

Actually the recent posts by others have been sort of filling a gap while I geared up to articulate this one.

All I can do is share my experience and all you can do is read it and perhaps ponder the implications as we move ahead into fields of radically different energies.

09ec38a3a76b2b76a5eec0569bea7e8bThis out-of-body adventure began as most of them do: I just suddenly realize I’m “somewhere,” as tho some aspect of myself got me there before my awareness caught up to the fact that I was out and about. (There’s an annoying mechanism that seems to cut off much of what happens there from memory here.)

So, “suddenly” I realize I’m seated at a table with a group of others – about ten to twelve people altogether. It seems I’m about to guide them in an experience of some sort. At the moment, we’re waiting – waiting for what isn’t yet clear.

Meanwhile, a man I dated briefly in college comes up from behind me, leans down over my left shoulder in a gesture of greeting. I reach up and stroke his face in acknowledgment of his arrival. (This man – a brief blip in my 3D storyline – has made quite a few appearances in my OBEs. I don’t understand this odd connection, but it’s there nonetheless. I have no unresolved issues re: him… we just seem to have a continuing alliance of sorts in 4D. There are a few ‘unlikely’ people I’ve known who turn up in this state with some regularity. Maybe someday I’ll understand why.)

I’m aware that these people in my group are feeling a bit awkward about what’s soon to transpire – which involves me, along with other facilitators and other groups also gathered nearby (think small-group ‘breakout sessions’ during a seminar) in a meadow-like setting.

Then I realize we’re about to introduce the concept of EROS as an energetic presence on the rise currently, and explore and introduce of the actual embodiment of it here on Earth.

Sexual Healing

This is a very expansive subject that will deeply influence the experience of being human in the ascended frequencies. I’ll just describe what happened in this very foundational beginner’s session that occurred in the “night schools” that most everyone – aware of this or not – attends while their bodies sleep. I’m feeling a bit tentative about entering this water myself (in attempt to describe this phenom), because I still grapple with the full picture of what it will really be like to have this energy in full swing on a planet where humans are so deeply wounded and distorted in this department.

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Sacred Masc/Fem, Twin Souls, Tantric Sex, Shakti, Art

Venus & Her LoverI came upon this mature & worldly couple living a juicy, highly creative & colorful life in Ecuador.

They inspire me…

Perhaps you’ll appreciate this interesting pair in a 1:23:00 video interview with the Conscious Consumer Network. There’s much more info at their illustrious website, linked at the end.

I particularly enjoyed the fact that their hair is silver AND they’re wonderfully *luscious* with life!

ox W

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Traditional Hindu View of Sexual Tantra


Anyone who has experienced a kundalini awakening will enter into some degree of sexual tantra awareness. At least, it would seem so to me that the two are connected part-and-parcel. This subject is also connected to one of my recent experiences that I’m still working on writing up for you.

In this 8-minute video snip, Yogacharya Basile P. Catoméris explains to ‘New Realities’ host Alan Steinfeld how tantric practice has been understood in traditional (and ancient) Hindu tradition. Note the term ‘shakti’ is virtually interchangeable with kundalini.

(Kundalini might be considered technically as the ‘immediate embodiment‘ of this energy, whereas shakti refers to a more expansive plasmic presence of it, or her, if you hold the ‘Goddess Kundalini’ belief. This has been my sense, but I may not be on target traditionally.)

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Relationship in the Ascension Paradigm

Here is another hefty message about the changes we are immersed in at this time, from Sirian starseed Lisa Renee. You may also listen to this in audio form on itunes; linked at the end. Or both! Read along as Lisa reads to you. This is a lot of material to just ‘get’ with a casual scan. Note there is a little exercise to help us collaborate with our Inner Selves, also at the end.

Blessings to all  oxo ~W

THE HIEROS GAMOS:  The New Relationship Paradigm

by Lisa Renee

“The term hieros gamos is used generally to refer to the sacred marriage between two divinities, or between a human being and Mother/Father God, or between two human beings (under certain special conditions); the ultimate alchemy of forces which harmonize polar opposites.

Dear Family,

This template of which was previously referred to as “Spiritual Marriage in No Time” has returned to the Earth logos in 2012 through the alchemical restoration of the Hieros Gamos. (Connected through the Unity Logos, a Guardian project to rebirth the planetary logos, see the January 2011 theme newsletter) Hieros Gamos or “Hierogamy” is the Sacred Marriage of a Human Being with Divinity (the Inner Spirit) and the Unification between all life expressions and its levels of opposite. From the Guardian perspective, Spiritual Ascension comprises the Science of the Spirit, encompassing the entire creational mechanics of how spirit and matter travel throughout time and space. At certain levels of frequency conjunction within the spiral of time, access is possible to new templates and therefore embodiments. The planet has reached that axis in time.

Hieros Gamos is the sacrament that represents “sacred marriage” at the individual level, to the relationship level, to the group level as a part of spiritual ascension, moving through the spiralling staircase of time to experience unification with (or marry) all aspects of God. When we marry God through this sacrament, Christ returns.

Returning to Inner Balance

We have finally crossed the threshold into the New Year of which holds an especially auspicious significance in planetary and human consciousness evolution, the end cycle year of 2012 and beyond. We are emerging into yet another completely new territory within the Ascension timeline. The frequency shift and energetic terrain still remain mysterious, ambiguous and confusing to the majority of the people on the Earth. Most anxiety is a result of mental confusion, when we do not have a proper evolutionary context of which to reframe our old beliefs, traditions, habits and their dying structure. Imbalanced behaviors and negative mental attitudes are not tolerated in the new frequencies and if we have not cleared our ego to submit to higher forces, we are getting hammered by external circumstances. The ego will manifest depression, obsessions, anxiety, mania and other brain dysfunctions when not integrated with the inner spirit. (This imbalance is referred to as “soul fragmentation”, the root cause is persistent negative mental thoughts created by an untrained mind. Mental miasms such as thought or belief obsession can also be inherited and can be cleared through ancestral healing.)

Many people who are not aware of the Ascension process, in attempting to deal with their day to day lives are echoing in their sentiment, “Why am I so incredibly tired?” One cannot resist change or fight against this transformational current without getting pummeled. Everyone is feeling some level of this evolutionary change now. No matter who we think we are or where we think we are going – we must return to inner balance.

As we submit and let go to the larger energetic flow while listening to the inner voice, that voice was telling us these last weeks to wait and be still. We have been energetically conserving ourselves for the right alignment into “effortlessness”. The higher wisdom is always hidden in the right timing. Many times when you feel like you are failing (or “being flattened”) it is the misunderstanding of the necessity of waiting for the right timing, and/or being in the right location of which to begin an action. We are retraining our bodies to work in the new energies effortlessly and efficiently. We are learning that less energetic exertion is definitely yielding more results now.

Alchemy of Transformation

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On Being Alone

In case this speaks to you, dear guest — a message from AA Metatron. I personally seem to need a lot of solitude time… ox :W

Why Mastery Involves Times of Solitude

Metatron Message, Updated & Republished

Greetings Beloved! I am Metatron, Lord of Light. We surround each of you in a specially created vector of Unconditional Love. A vector of nonlinear space that is uniquely opened as each of you read these words from your own space and chosen time.

The present phase of linear time on your planet is a uniquely opportune juncture for self-review and chosen solitude. Masters many of you, particularly those above the age of 49, the seventh 7 year cycle, find yourselves in a state of solitude, after spouses have passed, relationships terminated and marriage contracts have ended. And although this path is at times quite lonely, quite difficult and may feel ‘unnatural’ for many of you, it is with purpose. So we tell you to use this time wisely, embrace it. You are on the cusp of a great graduation.

Now there is a recurring message in many of your religious texts that says “For everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven.”

Indeed there is a time for solitude. Divine Solitude is a noble condition, and one that offers quantum leaps in terms of growth, when understood, and recognized for its profound purpose.

You see the Divine Self is ultimately, conclusively alone in its final pursuit of omnipotence.

In your terms, the soul enters the earth alone, and the spirit departs the earth alone. Ascended Masters that walk the Earth, have for millennia sought solitude in their incarnations before achieving Mastery. So it is with many of you now.

Dear Ones, Many of you who find yourself alone at this time, are of the belief that you must find a partner. Many of you seek your ‘soul mate,’ your twin flame. Yet we tell you, in many cases among the advanced souls, you are alone because you have planned it. Indeed it is a special and noble undertaking. It is time for Divine Solitude.

Solitude for those seeking sanctified light, for those seeking, what is termed ‘consecrated enlightenment’ chose specific periods in their life plan, to be alone for a time. This does not mean you will always be in solitude, it simply means for a time you have chosen it to ‘work on the self’; to achieve self love. Among souls seeking Mastery, approximately one of every three or four lifetimes, is a lifetime chosen for solitude.

Loving the SELF is a Requirement

Love of self is a condition that many, especially those from Christian heritage, have lost. Christianity with its teachings of original sin taught you that you were flawed in your nature, that you needed forgiving. You spent lifetimes prostate asking forgiveness for who you are. You lost your sense of your divinity, and found it easier to give than to receive. Balance was forfeited.

Now, we tell you that as the Earth transforms to the new Crystalline Age, the nature of energy resonance and the dimensional grasp of the planet is expanded. There is a lessening of the influence of duality/polarity for those of you that choose to extend beyond the third dimension.

You may ask whether solitude or partnerships bring greater advancement to the soul. The question is timely and especially pertinent for many of you in the dawn of the Ascension.

The short answer is that both coupling and solitude have their divine purpose… and we underline the word BOTH. Much is gained in being in committed loving relationship. This is the natural circumstance in most sojourns on the plane of Earth.

But Masters, we tell you that there is also great purpose also in solitude. It is in fact a requisite.

It is no error that great numbers of you on the finals steps of the path of enlightenment are alone in this period. Now is the prelude to the coming Ascension. If you are among these, we tell you that perhaps your solitude is appropriate. Perhaps it is as it should be. You see it is how many of you planned it.

Yet many of you feel that the loneliness is too much to bear and that you must pursue a partner… the elusive twin flame. Dear Souls, there is much confusion around the concept of the twin flame, the ‘soul mate’, and the role and nature of optimal partnership in Mastery of Self.

Solitude and Nondependency

Solitude is intended to be a period of sublime reverence of self. Your life and your experience in this plane is your own creation, your own living tapestry, woven by your individual belief. Within solitude, the soul is prompted into self-review, and opportunity is given to dive deeply into the deep waters that flow within you. To swim in the ocean of SELF, and in so doing rediscover the love within, to learn what a brilliant spark of God you truly are.

Relationships are a method of reflecting the affectivity of your belief system, and giving you feedback on what, simply stated, is working, and what is not. Detachment requires the individual to explore the self, to reacquaint with the inner horizon, and this facilitates and necessitates sovereignty. Sovereignty is the prepotency of Mastership.

A relationship of two sovereign nondependent humans has greater balance, greater creativity, and greater longevity than a pairing of two beings co-dependent on one another. Do you understand?

Ultimately each soul must clearly define SELF in order to gain Mastery. Self Mastery is embodied in periods of planned detachment. It is that period in which impeccability is crystallized. And we tell you Dear Ones, crystallization, through impeccability is a necessary phase of Self- Mastery. It is a calibrational juncture in the multidimensional sojourn. One enters the void, the great mystery in the quest for fortitude and sovereign vision, alone, without a shoulder to lean on. And in the process, one discovers sublime wholeness and self completion.

Do not misunderstand our meaning; there is great validity in coupling, in the natural aspect of soul mate. But conclusively one walks the path of Mastery in sovereign detachment.

One becomes enlightened when one learns to transcend the physical self. Each of you must endeavor to the final conquest of what we term as ‘impeccability’. Impeccability is the crystallization or uniform clarity of the soul, and it is a necessary virtue of Mastery. This involves release of dependency, the release of all that does not serve your divinity. It is a rebooting and reprogramming of all you are.

We have told you that the language, the fabric of higher dimension is sacred geometry. Impeccability is the geometric clarity of the soul mind. By defining oneself through impeccability one becomes crystalline, and thus more capable of Divine Consciousness within the geometric light of coherent higher planes. It is only accomplished by deciding who you are, what you believe, and then living it. Recognizing your truths, and aligning fully to them.

Question to Metatron: Are you saying that loving relationships, such as marriage, are not our ultimate union? Continue reading



Don’t be satisfied with poems and
stories of how things
have gone with others.

Unfold your own myth
without complicated explanation,
so everyone will understand

the passage,

W E   H A V E   O P E N E D   Y O U

The Illuminated Rumi
Translation: Coleman Barks


The above excerpt really sent me when I first encountered it in the stunning book, The Illuminated Rumi.  I had been engaged with kundalini for a few years by that point, during which I experienced a plethora of things beyond my previous ability to imagine… until it was happening.  I had undeniably been opened by something far beyond my little self, and a whole other level of my story was certainly unfolding — most of which I didn’t dare speak about, as it so overtly defied typical standards re:  what’s real and what’s possible (doable or be-able) for mere mortals.

I wanted to post this  Rumi poetry for a couple of reasons:

  1. I simply love it.  It reflects what happened when I was visited upon (and opened) by the unimaginable energy which is kundalini.  I could no longer be contained in the context of my former self; those conceptual contours, walls, structures had been dismantled.  A great expansion had begun; there was no stopping it, and the process became all that mattered, for the most part, for the duration.  Active kundalini could be neither deferred nor denied; there was no trying to fake business as usual. There were also so very few people with whom I could relate my avalanche of experiences, which made for bouts of sadness and frustration, and which also provided impetus for my speaking about all of this NOW — to assure others in similar situations that they are not alone. Before this energy kicked in, my life was a continual flow of meetings, teleconferences, and emails; all necessary for event organization, which was my business at the time — creating networking, seminar, and social events for ‘conscious’ professionals.  But there came a tipping point after which that activity had to subside to allow this opening to happen “without complicated explanation” to others, and more to the point, without the constant commotion inherent in constellating and choreographing a stream of events, and all the accompanying  PR such work requires.  My priorities of necessity HAD to shift to the inner planes… so my outer world HAD to become quiet.  Rumi obviously had intimate knowledge of the state I was in; his exquisite expressions attested to this.  And during a time when no one else really “got” me, knowing there was once a Rumi in the world was comforting :)  His words about ‘being opened’ by the gods was a clear reference to the kundalini that spontaneously ignited in him as a result of darshan — a particularly significant meeting he had with a mystic named Shams.  So resonant were their energies, they merged with the Divine in a field of ecstatic union — a state quite out of the ordinary in human experience, and which launched a thousand poetic ships that continue transporting souls to this day, myself among them.    

  2. I’m also posting the excerpt in celebration of my completion of a formidable project — my written account of my kundalini awakening, to be published in 2009!  This was possibly the toughest writing I’ve ever done.   I threw away volumes of drafts,  starting from scratch over and over and over.  Then, when it was *almost complete,* my computer crashed and I LOST that file.  (As I was nearing the finish line, my kundalini re-activated, stirring up a new flurry of physical, paranormal, and electrical commotion, the latter of which blew circuits and my hard drive.) Kundalini, I assure you if you’ve not had this experience yourself, can bring on High Strangeness, in spades — all the while not giving a whit about clocks, calendars, appearances, or other “street-level” concerns;  it will go on and on as it sees fit for as long as it takes to accomplish its mission.  In my case, for various reasons, this took YEARS.  Transmitting years of weirdness (and illumination!) in a reasonably coherent, tightly constrained account was challenging to say the least.  (Space was limited as mine is one of numerous essays on the subject in this book, when it could easily be an epic in its own ‘write’.)  Not to mention — to me this involves intimate exposure of all manner of nonordinary phenomena… which just skims the surface of what went on while I was living it!  So: imagine having myriad super-sensory and out-of-body experiences, on and OFF the planet, with various ‘beings,’ in various dimensions and timelines — with a dollop of sex for good measure — and you might begin to get a sense of the Big Spill I splashed into that writing.  BTW, re: the Rumi quote ~ I had wanted to include it in the book, but could not obtain permission to do so, so I’m using it here in the blog (still without permission), as consolation.  It inspired my writing; I want to honor Rumi for having composed it!

    In short — I wrote my kundalini story;
    the editor responded with great enthusiam;
    so **Hallelujah** warbles Whitehawk,
    wings flapping in joy (and relief)


    (Hopefully my effusion isn’t too over the top ;)

Love ~ or Addiction?

heartinhands1The following, adapted from The Path to Love by Deepak Chopra, resonated so I thought I’d post it here.  The subject  ‘rings’ for me, because when I look back at various significant relationships, prevailing energies often seemed more along the lines of addiction; need; obsession; desire to control or possess… and other such forms of  ‘connection’ in lieu of love.  ~All par for life on earth with its various confusions & distortions as we try to have authentic relationships while also endeavoring to get our (often complicated,  often unconscious) needs met.

So, even though I sort of went off on a tangent beyond this Chopra excerpt,  I’m going ahead and posting it as a gentle nudge to consider — as the year winds down and we reflect on our lives — the ways in which we relate.  (Or how we’re related to, as — on some level — we attract the vibrational response to signals we are emitting, regardless how oblivious to this we may [want to] be.)  Besides considering love vs. attachment, women in particular might also consider the essence of surrender (ie, into the expansive, sacred space of love) vs. submission (ie, to a partner’s expectations at the expense of one’s self; an energetic contraction)… and men might consider their use of power (as in, the power of the shining soul) vs coercion or intimidation when negotiating relationships with women.

And:  I *will* actually be posting here again very soon; I’ve been in an intimate relationship with a deadline lately… oxo ~W

Is Attachment Really Love?

The path to love doesn’t end with surrender, although in a way there is nothing more to do. The process of letting go is all that spirit needs in order to enter your life. The rest is a ripening of the union between self and Self.

There is, however, still the enormous issue of how two people can surrender to each other completely. No matter how much love you begin to feel within, you must still reflect it to your beloved. Two spiritual people living together don’t automatically make a spiritual relationship. Therefore we want to ask in practical terms how love increases between two souls. The ego is not easily defeated in its preoccupation with everything but love.

Surrender is not achieved until you surrender completely to your beloved. To accomplish this you must relinquish everything that deprives you of love and nurture everything that comes from love.

One way that people deprive themselves of love is especially confusing because it seems to be a way to increase it: This is attachment. In its mildest form attachment is the desire to be with someone special. Even in preadult forms attachment has two sides–it both includes and excludes. Adult relationships carry attachment to a deeper level, but the exclusivity remains.

Love and attachment are not the same thing. Love allows your beloved the freedom to be unlike you. Attachment asks for conformity to your needs and desires. Love imposes no demands. Attachment expresses an overwhelming demand: “Make me feel whole.” Love expands beyond the limits of two people. Attachment tries to exclude everything but two people.

Yet attachment has a deeper spiritual meaning. It represents an attempt to reach unity by merging with another soul.

Adapted from The Path to Love, by Deepak Chopra (Three Rivers Press, 1997).

Dismantling the Dark

What a difference a day makes.  OK, maybe a few days.

The Karma, Sex post of the other day seems to have possibly struck a chord, as it’s been attracting many visitors.  This is a followup.

So, the plotline goes… I was recently catapulted into confrontation with a major meme (or mass belief; one held over millennia), which began with a spontaneous and unexpected “insight” into the emotionally charged erotic thoughtforms of a man in my close proximity.  That “mere moment” thrust me into a matrix of frequency fences that have been holding ancient male/female dynamics in place for eons; that ‘place’ being far more conducive to the male’s possession & expression of his power than the female’s possession & expression of hers.  This realm reverberated strongly, as explained in the earlier post.  For me, it became a wild ride through a world of mirrors reflecting ad infinitum in various contexts of time, social structures, and my own karmic trails re: this theme of male dominance on the planet (and the battles into which it keeps sending us), and the throttled feminine’s eternal efforts to balance and heal this distorted equation (and her lot in it) while simultaneously bleeding profusely in every sense of the word.

Such a powerful experience has this been, I now sense that it may well be a primary area of contribution in this life, to invest my energies and efforts to the healing of this dark universal form that has had a vice grip on humanity for so long.  This theme now feels like a lens through which to focus my more general “new world” ideas and experiences: the domain of the sexes, and the realignment and reunion needed there for the healing of not only the hearts of men and women (and whitehawks), but the heart of humanity, and the heart of GAIA, and the anchoring of higher-love frequencies here on our blessed earth.  God knows my background is ‘fertile’ in this field!  Again I’m reminded of the Ace of Wands, which, incidentally, AGAIN came up in a primary position in a Tarot spread… this time directly “covering” a Swords card that represented strife.  That ‘wand’ seems to have become something of a club to the head!

At 2:00 this morning I awoke (as usual).  I was up the rest of the night (as usual), during which an entire book plan poured through me into a notebook.  It seems this book could write itself (knock wood), or maybe even has already been written (in the higher planes), and my role is to affirm this.  There’s nothing quite as satisfying as a creative act, and my “midnight oil” lit a fine glow on this whole subject.  I grabbed a nap in the dawning hour, while also being overcome with “the energies” again, working their blessed upgrades into my full-spectrum self.  I feel intimately and divinely connected with the Universe when every molecule vibrates like this… activating new levels of life… quite amazing.

There is a greater theme (involving human enslavement in various forms), and a far greater energy coming into expression currently – in the sacred service of dissolving the barriers (the matrix) that have held archaic paradigms of various limitations and barbarisms in place.  Anyone and everyone who steps up and offers themselves to serve the will of God I believe will find themselves enlisted in a “love corps” that will serve to shift the terribly unbalanced, often cruel, distribution of power and resources on this beautiful planet.  I’m not suggesting it will be a Love Fest from the beginning; a mere glance around will tell you, dismantling old structures creates chaos before the gift of the New can take residence and stabilize.  This “corps” (or factions of it, depending on the ‘department’ one serves) will have to deeply penetrate the Dark to comprehensively dismantle it  before scaffolding for greater Light (which is already phasing in, btw) can assume prominence in our reality.  Simply by “deeply” withdrawing attention, investment & belief in its existence contributes to its dissolution!  I feel I have just been through a harrowing ‘battle’ of sorts with a separatist belief and practice that has been manifest in this world throughout history (and prior).  I experienced it to the dramatic extent I did because it is a primary karmic issue to me personally, and that alone signals the likelihood that there’s something for me to contribute to the healing of this story.  Our biggest pain often points us toward our greatest work… pain is intended to inspire us to seek to resolve unhealthy trends regarding how we “do life.”

Returning to this business of my recent odyssey … it can be quite uncomfortable in places, or realms, such as the collective disturbed psyche!  I kept telling myself, this is just all projection… it’s all merely projected (albeit powerful) thoughtforms stuck in the lower, heavier (astral) planes of this world.  At Soul level, we grok that these constructs are the ego’s devices, intended to give the ego power (or at the very least, confirm its validity to itself). But in the end, they just perpetuate fear and separation… keeping wholeness at bay.  I found myself invoking Christ light, over and over.  More exactly… I was calling Christ to awaken more fully in me – summoning what I KNOW is, and always has been, here already, to STEP UP AND DIRECT THIS LIFE.  Lift me above the din (and den) of the embattled ego, to a higher perception of the entire picture here… and impulse me to proceed in the loftiest, most God-empowered way possible, given my inherent skills and gifts.  >>> I’m feeling EXCELLENT today!  And as an added bennie, I lost weight in the process.  I noticed my appearance seemed to have changed… got on a scale, andlo and behold!  I think shedding the weight of old ‘enslaved’ beliefs and replacing them with the expansive Light of the possible can have an enLightening effect on what one’s bones are carrying around.

So, if inspired, I invite you to tune into the Light with which you are imbued (Christ, “photons,” “adamantines,” whatever really invokes the ultimate divine reality to you)* …that part of you that knows All in the hologram of existence… and ask it to ACTIVATE and set fully into motion everything required in your life to move you beyond the barriers, limitations, frequency fences, memes, etcetc, of the OLD MATRIX, the Old World, the Old Confines and Constructs… and STRETCH into the fullest essence of that power – into the divine realm of “miracles” – because you (we) ARE the miracle.  We ARE the Light and Love Everlasting.  So, Lazarus: come forth!  We’ve got things to do.  Afterward, we’ll party with angels and partake of the nectars of the gods, with laurel wreaths upon our heads–now there’s a thoughtform.

* I tend to invoke fewer deities now (usually, not always) because I believe it’s time, seriously, to step up and claim our own innate divinity that has waited patiently in our souls for so very long.  By “Christ” I’m referring to this Light, not a person… though I have nothing but love for Jeshua!

I would never have expected a glimpse into someone’s private erotic “file” to initiate such a journey.  I knew he and I had work to do in this life, but the roles I see now are not what I’d previously imagined.  So, I offer gratitude for this catalyst on my path… it feels I’m being guided to where I might manifest my greatest service.

Blessings to all  ~ Whitehawk

Ace of Wands

Something interesting (to me at least!) happened here this morning, and it seems related to the previous post (Karma, Sex…) so in the spirit of sharing for what it may be worth ‘out there,’ here it is.  As you might imagine, there’s a personal ‘vignette’ rather activated in my life that spurred the last post’s thought-flow on thoughtforms and the karma they tend to weave.

What happened this morning is… I tried a tarot spread re: this situation that is kind of chewing on me currently.  I’m not a particularly skilled tarot reader (the I Ching was my primary tool for many years… then several years ago I decided to try the cards).  I find the process interesting, though far more open to impressions and interpretation than the Ching.  Anyway — this morning’s spread was ‘crowned’ by the card, Ace of Wands.  So the energy represented by the Ace of Wands in that position could be said to be ’emanating’ throughout the whole picture, or situation.  Then… I come here to complete the Karma, Sex post and I find — plugged in by WordPress as “possibly related” to my material here — a link w/the words, “Ace of Wands.”  This caught my attention, and I clicked, and what follows below is what was on the other end of that link.  All a curious little trip, because the dynamics between males and females are integral to what I’m talking about in the Karma, Sex post.   So now here it is, perhaps there’s something here for all of us, in this universal hologram in which we are all connected (underlines are mine):

Ace of Wands

symbol meaning union

This is the starting point for love. The Ace of Wands represents the new born male and female child. They have not yet met in a meaningful way. The union represented by this card is the union and harmony of the universe itself. The universe exists in harmony even if we can not sense that natural harmony. The world is right and the world is perfect. There is nothing that needs to be changed. We are born into this world in a balanced way.

The male and female experience life very differently. The male regenerates energy by tapping into photon or light energy and the female regenerates her energy by tapping into the atomic and molecular energies of physical matter. From a sexual point of view the male is constantly generating and loosing sperm. The female is born with all the eggs she will carry the rest of her life. These differences are profound in their effect on each of us.  The physical body we are born into determines many of our life experiences.

This difference between the sexes is also a difference in polarity. It attracts the male and female together for an energy exchange and attempts to balance and neutralize the inequalities between each of them. Our souls may be both male and female but our physical bodies are not.

When these two meet it is “Puppy Love”! Each can see the God and Goddess in the other. They don’t really see the real person. In that sense this card represents Spiritual Love.

Ace of Wands

Male experience:

The Ace of Wands symbolizes light/electricity bursting through the barriers of old ideas. Conscious awareness and intuitive awareness are one and the same. Here is the spiritual experience of being at one with God or the Cosmic.

The boy child has the experience of becoming part of all things and finding his true destiny in play and nature.

The limitations of language make this experience indescribable and it can be shared with no one. This is very difficult for him to accept. Especially when he tries to communicate with the opposite sex.

This card symbolizes the life force, the phallus and God in physical form. The spirit of life within us is sacred and holy. Spiritual Light manifests as life energy.

Female experience:

The Ace of Wands symbolizes her union with the spiritual light. She achieves a great understanding in the form of illuminations. She has a strong awareness of being a girl instead of a boy. Instinctively she is aware of the life force in the phallus and of boys being Gods in physical form .

She wonders what it would be like to live forever but no one understands her. Many things remain a secret between God/dess and herself.

She feels small and helpless as she ponders the mighty forces of destiny and the male dominated world.


Karma, Sex, and those Gnarly Thoughtforms

Unless one is an advanced spiritual initiate practicing meticulous lightbody hygiene, a huge array of thoughtforms accumulate in the human energy field.  Often, clairvoyants can see them clustered around a person. They are just there, in everyone, like a cage full of various pets (or pests), tending to influence (or wreak havoc on) a life in such a variety of ways, they can become quite capable of taking over as a person’s primary navigation system, for better or worse, depending on prevailing themes. 

Thoughts are indeed things (or beings, even), verrry powerful once they are loosed by a fertile mind — especially if energized by strong emotion — and verrry magnetic to more of the same.  They broadcast invitations to resonant others to come join them and their beneficent host/creators, being us, sometimes to the point of burning down the house with their explosive potentialities.  They can also be likened to viruses, reproducing exponentially in the operating system of a life, as we cluelessly, sloppily, and naively obsess over various dramas in which we participate — in starring roles, as supportive cast, or “merely” as hooked voyeurs… all of which are investments of the energy of our attention.  Of course, if one’s thoughts are 100% pure, loving and godly… then hey, no problem! But this post isn’t about that blessed state.feminine surrender

Consider that one destiny of these highly charged and magnetic thoughtforms can be the inception of addictions: ie, to the way one feels under the influence of a drug, or a person (ie guru or celebrity supplication/ worship are prime examples… or just a compelling peer connection), or sex.  Sex is hugely powerful; ground zero in the “nuclear neighborhood” of the lower chakras.  It is a portal to the divine if worked with in frequencies of high love and/or sacred intent. In the intoxicatingly charged dominant/ submissive dynamic between particularly aligned (or misaligned) male/ female polarities, it can be an ignition sequence for losing all control before you know what hit you if you don’t practice concerted management of your faculties. 

This seems to me to be particularly true for the feminine/yin polarity of the equation: the dominant (male/yang) energy can easily syphon precious – and potent – energy from the sex centers (being physically present is not a requisite) of an open female, sending her into a long spin right out of her root.  This can become dangerous, fast, for all control over one’s life can be lost if the lower centers lose their secure grounding.  The male in this scenario gets stronger (with a likely ‘substance addiction’ strengthening as well), while the female’s power wanes as she slides further under the control of the dominant partner as his provider, possibly intoxicated out of her senses and swooning every minute until she wakes up one day to a life in shambles.

So: thoughtforms.  Say you have a Big Experience somewhere along your journey.  These are mandatory for the earth school; otherwise we wouldn’t incarnate to learn.  That experience resides in one’s energy body, or field, like a highly compressed holographic recording, with its emotional tone as its magnetic mortar.  It sets up what might be considered a multi-dimensional domain (distributed across various levels of your energetic template)… and invites “guests” over to join it for as long as we live; even longer (as karma).  Because the lightbody tends to pair up with numerous physical bodies over time to work out particular themes to their ultimate healed conclusion… unhealed thoughtforms can accompany any number of “bodies” through incarnations. We continue working on these ongoing plot-lines until ultimately (please God!!!) we achieve resolution and can graduate to a whole new story.  (This, incidentally, is what I believe humanity is endeavoring to do en masse… graduate to a new story… within the very near future!)

The situation that initiated this rather loaded post involves a man I spent some time around the other day.  In a revelatory moment, a few choice thoughtforms of his personal life played through my mind like a slide show.  This has happened before… I occasionally have these little glimpses into “interiors” quite spontaneously… and it is not intentional.  I just have occasional “spurts of reception” with people I seem to have a sympathetic resonance with.   I have no sense of it coming… I just suddenly receive little transmissions which also nail me with the full-throttle emotional tone of the scene being witnessed.  I really FEEL these.   I’m an empath, which is still a new revelation (and learning curve) for me in the full sense of the term.  (Note – Zeroing in on this easily-overlooked feature in my psycho-energetic makeup has illumined a very specific and crucial nook of my existence! ~ And if my experiences ‘feel familiar’ to you, do yourself a big favor and study up on The Empath, as well as the importance of clear boundaries. Could spare you a world of grief.  I suggest you check out  http://mysilentecho.com. ) I tend to take things in (or more to the point, I suddenly “find things in me”) that I then have to grapple with in some way.  Sometimes I have no idea what they are or why I’m experiencing them so intimately and intensely (as was the case when I “experienced” the events of 911 before they happened from a ground zero perspective; devastating!  It didn’t make any sense to my rational mind until after the event… tho it certainly freaked the bejeezuz out of me).

In this case of the other day, I knew exactly what was going on, and it was troubling, and it took me on *quite* an extensive ride.  It is, in fact, a prevailing ‘neverending story’ of the sexes, and one of the deepest wounds in my life (speaking karmically, across timelines).  It’s probably the Big Wound in the lives of most women (throughout time): the absolutely primary orientation to love, countered by the agonizing loss of trust in love.  Not that men don’t have their hurts, of course… but being a woman, this is my lens. 

What “popped” out of this man onto my inner screen was a very personal (to him) scene involving sex.  The woman in that scene actually reminded me of MYSELF; her entire emotional frequency, investment, and heart full of desire to give in that situation at the expense of her own receiving felt intimately familiar, and it set off a huge reverberation in me (my ‘resident’ thoughtforms/ karma were totally set off by this, if you follow) which continued to reverb through all time, all women, all earthly dimensions, and all archetypes involving male/female dynamics going all the way back to “the fall,” or first separation, by which I mean the point at which the sacred man/woman union of bliss and mutual harmony, respect, and co-operation fractured into what we have today.  What we have now is a deep distortion of that beautiful bond – rife with fear, power plays, secrets, lies, and manipulations.  Some day soon, in these shifting times, I envision this once again unifying into the shining, blessed pillar of solid connection that upholds the lives of a loving, committed couple — and their family, and the family of man on earth — as we are all such integral parts of the healed Whole.  The final and ultimate healing begins with the masculine/feminine rift at its basest levels.  The Ace of Wands!

So this little event sort of “caught me,” or I caught it, like a virus that hijacked my thoughts and my emotions on such an expansive issue… and I feel it all echoing through me like some kind of giant, entangled MEME for the entire species.  My heart is literally aching, and extremely tight.  I sense this is another immense layer of “genetic pathcutting” (ie “batch” karmic processing and cleansing on behalf of humanity as well as oneself) in fact, at this point — I have to heal this gargantuan, mass thoughtform in myself to send that “healed ripplet” into the collective heart/soul… to contribute to the rainbow bridge back to oneness.  If you’re a meditator… I invite you to join this effort as a healing practice.

This particular meme is about the expectation that women submit to men.  The eternal “pleasing of the king,” while not having her own needs met or remotely even acknowledged… her needs (and entire life lens) being more emotional, as she struggles to be the love-and-care giver to everyone around her, while so often being taken for absolute granted or even disrespected for that form of service… and gradually collapsing over time inside her own suffering.  She has been trained by society to keep silent because her truth is something no one wants to be bothered with.  While men are free (encouraged!) to openly make their wishes known and pursue them – and have the ‘entitlement’ to simply expect women to acquiesce to them – women tend to have to struggle to find alternate work-arounds to keep themselves in the game in ways that aren’t completely demoralizing.  Women often can’t speak up without some form of physical, mental, emotional or professional repercussion.  Women, by and large, are encouraged to be “sweet” and generally compliant… which can work for her to an extent… until something happens that absolutely requires that she rise up. Which may be something as basic as her Truth asserting!

So… back to this man and his illustrious thoughtforms.  I found myself thinking of his wife sleeping next to him all these years, and while she may not have seen his “repertoire” like I did, I know she had to feel this at the core of her being.  I feel certain of this, and my heart broke for her, and for myself, and then for all women in similar situations… in which they cannot trust the man they love, as he cavalierly romps around among various interchangeable toys.  Women give their bodies & souls to their relationship (and its offspring), but it isn’t enough.  And, what is there to do with such situations?  Just keep suffering silently the entire life?  Venture out into a highly complex and competitive world solo after 20 years?  On and on this went.  BTW, I know this is a complicated situation, that I am addressing in a rather singular way, and there are a thousand reasons that partners stray or love expires… though I suspect these reasons fall into a small group of core themes.

Now I am working on clearing all of this from my OWN field, as it has taken on MYTHIC proportions here, like the universe is processing one of its biggest tears through me.  (By “tears” I mean “rips,” but tears in the sense of crying — also appropriate!)  I feel strongly that our biggest task at this time is to just keep healing these karmas, keep nipping (blessing, healing) negative forms in their buds before they gather too much steam, and keep holding faith in the promise of sacred union between the sexes, and the ultimate healing of humanity and its return to vibrational Oneness with God.  We cannot expect the “vibration of Oneness” (or bliss) to do this for us, ie, “I’ll get healed when I’m in heaven.”  We have to become heavenly (loving, respectful, considerate, compassionate… including – or especially – to ourselves) in order to merge with that heavenly vibration during these ascension years!  Quite the challenge when our egos are reacting and responding to everything in their own primal, self-oriented, and generally rooted-in-fear inclinations.

I will end this by offering a very elementary exercise that can help clear ones’ field of gnarly thoughtforms and other energetic gunk.  It involves invoking light and healing from your own soular level, which can be envisioned as a tube with “little earthly you” on one end, and funneling up into the “vast oversoul you” that merges with Source Creator on the other end (imagine the Galactic Center, if you appreciate specificity).  Open that tube, or funnel, and draw in the purest whitest energy you can imagine, and scrub yourself out with it, from the bottom up, as often as possible.  I’ve done this with my beloved “photon bubbles” mentioned elsewhere in this blog; I’ve also done it igniting mini-explosions in each chakra, sort of like big old box cameras used to do when they took the picture — the “pouf of light,” if you follow.  Just play with what feels best/most effective.

After this “cleansing,” it is advisable to invoke a final “whirlwind” of photons down through your field, past your feet, into the earth.  The point of this piece is, that “spinning vortex” vacuums up all the “debris” shaken loose, even pulverized, by the first step, and recycles it back into neutral energy that the blessed elementals can come along and recycle into positive new forms!  It also doesn’t hurt to finish up with the great and good Violet Flame.  The Violet Flame is like the extra wax job on the vehicle that’s been cleansed to a gleaming shine.  Search that term if it is new to you; I’m sure you will find a lot of info online.

So… quite a major and meandering gush her.  If it speaks to you, I’d be interested in your response or experiences.

Love all… Whitehawk