There is a type of loneliness that transcends all others. It isn’t born from lack of company, and doesn’t share the joys of an inner rich world that comes with solitary introversion. Nor has it anything to do with depression, but rather, this kind of loneliness is a spiritual affliction. This loneliness brings feelings of emptiness, of having nothing, and having an extraordinary uncertainty in everything.
This feeling is a rare experience that comes to a person who has seen too deep and too much. Yet it is the beginning of what I call the process of Involution. These people have become aware of the unreality of their lives. They become increasingly concerned about their lives which bring them pain, yet they still aren’t sure of the source. To them, the ordinary structure of society loses its values as they realize the fictitious nature of this matrix, this same illusional matrix where they had been projecting all their hopes and desires. If what they thought was real in this life turns out to be false, then all the ambitions and aspirations they wanted to accomplish in it are lost immediately, leaving them with the questions: Who are we and what are we doing here? Continue reading