Knock. Knock. Knock.

Visitors, Procedures, and Lineage Healing

I’ve had a round of “symptoms” recently, which come in a wide variety, many of which readers involved in kundalini or ascension activations are familiar. (I consider kundalini and ascension intimately connected at this point… ie, I see kundalini as a vehicle for awakening, and ascension–or expansion–as the awakening.) What “awakening” means to me now also involves much more than it did in years past, because now my perception of What Is is exponentially expanded, and to awaken and weave the inner and outer worlds (and everyone and everything in them!) into one unified field is a far more convoluted adventure than I ever imagined!

(I may sound blazingly “new age,” but when you go through a lifetime of ‘experiences,’ the language that describes them sounds like this!)

Recently I’ve been experiencing a replay of some physical symptoms that initially appeared about nine years ago (when my kundalini began coming on strong), and continue to return every now and then. I’m supposing the recurrences are the results of the amping-up of energies within me (kundalini), which happens in response to energies that are amping-up universally, or galactically.

This is what has been going on. Maybe my experiences will help you open your perception a bit, or help you to feel less “the freak” if you are experiencing such things yourself. First: intense pain flared up in my right hand. I’ve had this mysterious pain before. It’s not in the bones, nor is it muscular. It feels like it’s either an inflammation of connecting tissue throughout the entire hand (excluding fingers), or inflamation of all the nerves. The pain is extreme, impairing my ability to do the simplest things like operate the mouse, or hold a toothbrush, pen, or coffee cup, or — natch — type. But the typing isn’t as bad as trying to gripsomething, however lightly. I may as well have a dozen blades impaling the hand; very very strange. Moreover, at the height of the hand business, my right foot had a little flair-up of the same thing. At one point I nearly fell over, just by putting weight on my foot, and feeling as though every bone in it was shattered. This foot piece lasted only about 48 hours, whereas the hand was out of commission for about 5 days.

I’ll come back with my hypothesis to the hand thing in a moment (along with another issue — involving the skull). First, an interesting experience came in the midst of this, involving “visitors” in my bedroom.

So: I was in bed at the height of the hand problem, awake, once again noticing pronounced waves of energy flowing through my entire body. (See Night Vibes, posted in May.) A frequent experience, these waves coursing through my body while reclining. Several months ago, these energies were happening almost daily (or, nightly). Not unpleasant. Not “blissy” or anything either. Rather like being a hybrid vehicle in the garage for the night, plugged into the juice. So in that sense, this phenom was neutral. I merely assumed it was my energy body (or DNA) receiving an influx, and also assumed it was all good that this be happening. Others might find this attitude naive. But I feel protected enough to be trusting about this. Anyway, the waves were back that night (among others lately), and I was simply observing them, and “willing” them to be clearing whatever was causing this pain in my right hand and foot.


Suddenly I shifted into transdimensional awareness, in which I clearly heard three loud, deliberately paced knocks on the bedroom door, which was closed as a measure of cat management. Next I “saw” the door open (this was not the physical door now, but an interdimensional door), at which point bright light poured in… and three beings walked through the door into the room. I saw only their 3 silhouettes...silhouettes, as they were inside the door and the light was behind them. They were of varying heights, very slim, and my mind grokked male merely due to the lack of hair I could discern from their silhouettes.

(“Did they have big heads?” asked a friend, thinking they might be greys. No, they didn’t. The only thing that registered to me as veering from ordinary humanness was how long and slim they seemed.)

This encounter got me somewhat excited, and I lost the “state” I was in that enabled me to perceive at that frequency (which is, relaxed and receptive). However, I talked (telepathed) to them anyway, saying that IF they are of the Light, would they please help me heal this crippling pain that’s hijacked my hand and foot? Also, while at it, I asked for any assistance possible to help me take on this energetic influx with grace and ease, and with the intention to bring more of my “spiritual gifts” online at the physical level. I added profuse words of gratitude for their help and healing. Thankyouthankyouthankyou. Eventually I fell asleep.

The next day was a Perfect Day. My personal energy was strong and clear; I felt substantial release of pain in the hand, and I felt more “plugged in” or aligned with the full-spectrum world than I had in a long time.

But there was to be more. As that perfect day flowed into evening, another energy-related (as I understand it) symptom started coming on. Another “old friend” from kundalini days, and also something I know many others are experiencing currently… some perhaps for the first time: intense pain at the base of the skull, gradually emanating through the whole head from here. I had this recurring symptom years ago, and it was explained to me that this is caused by excess electrical energy blasting up the spine into the skull, causing a temporary (and painful) overload, basically. This pain amplified and amplified over a 3-day period, and then “broke” as a fever might, releasing suddenly in a matter of moments.

The eventual outcome of this activity in the brain-stem area is to activate this area in humans, which has been pretty much dormant for millennia. This portion of the brain will “once again” function much like a “microwave dish antenna” that receives signals from higher realms; could be from beings here in our local universe, or could be transmissions from the cosmos. In the holographic field, it’s all the same “distance” ~ it’s the “bandwidth” capability for reception that matters. So this part of the brain is the receiving center for telepathic communications. I first heard this area referred to as the “Well of Dreams” (Ramtha) because it is our receptive channel for Visions, “dreams,” or telepathic communications. More recently it’s being referred to as the Mouth of God, as it drinks from fonts of higher intelligence. This center is apparently directly wired to the pineal gland (3rd eye) in the center of the skull, and also the thymus gland (high heart center) all of which are being activated to a great degree, to merge our heart with our intention and expression, at a higher level. These three centers are being rehabbed back to their original power and purpose, so humans may again be luminous universal citizens.

For your convenience (and mine, so I won’t have to explain so much myself!), I found the following online re: this area of the brain (the medulla oblongata):

Called in Chinese the “Jade Pillow” (Yu Chen), and referred to by Mantak Chiaas the Small Brain (Cerebellum) Centre, this chakra lies at the opening of the base of the skull, above the first cervical (neck) vertebra. It is part of a pump that draws spinal fluid and chi energy upwards, as well as promoting yin energy and helping to balance the yang energy of the Large Brain (Cerebrum).

This very important centre connects with the Crown Chakra at the top of the head. Ann Ree Colton calls this the “Mouth of God” or “Bindu” Center, and identifies it with the Medulla oblongata at the base of of the skull, in the proximity of the brain stem. This is the centre where one connects with the cosmic mantra or “logos”. It also controls the in-and out-breath, hence the association of breathing, sound, and mantra.

Now back to the hand thing.

When I first experienced this particular phenom about 9 years ago as I said above, I had a visitation experience then as well; interesting. That time I was pulled from my body and etherically attended to, regarding the hand. This is often done, btw — we receive healings or medical attentions via the energy (or etheric) body, which is then reintegrated with the physical, for healing. In that procedure (sorry this gets graphic)… my arm was opened up and the interior was “scraped,” i.e., some form of virus was really active in there, and they were trying to extract it. I remember seeing what resembled spores lined up inside the lower arm and hand, and they were scraping them out like you might try scraping seeds out of certain fruits or vegies. And I remember glancing down to the floor (I was lying on a table), and seeing some of the “spores” (???) squirming around down there, that had dropped during the procedure! Pretty gross. But the message was clear: I had something parasitic living in there, and it’s apparently never been completely removed from my system. Maybe I’m not vibing highly enough yet–I still have things like this happening!

The Atomic Root Center

Revisiting some info I received a few years ago re: this… I was reminded of being told that our energy bodies come into this life loaded with “karma” from other lifetimes, and much of it is stashed in the base of the spine (as is dormant kundalini). Sounds kind of like the base chakra is a primary storage unit of earthly experience (tho it is also distributed everywhere in our DNA). This karma (ie viruses and bacteria from other timestreams such as TB, pleurisy, and other “plague” diseases) can “activate” at any time (as can kundalini), emerging from the spine, traveling up, and manifesting in the physical temporarily as it transmutates up and out for good. Usually it manifests more as an echo than a full-out, lay-you-out illness.

The ultimate point here is, we are PROCESSING much old (ancient, even) low-vibe energies through these current bodies we wear, because we can’t take it with us into higher vibrations. But it must be “brought forth” and healed for good, before we go forward. Sooo, we are having all kinds of wild things happen within our very bods, the likes of which make no sense in the “consensus” 3D universe, but which we are working with (and through), regardless. Some of this is family karma, that we in this timeframe are clearing for the whole lineage. Some is about our own past lives. And even other stuff, if you are a “full-service pathcutter,” as I seem to be (an agreement I made for this life, to make up for bailing at an important moment during a prior incarnation), is processing through you (coming up for Light) on behalf of the entire planet. I have another story to illustrate this but if I don’t post this now (it’s been sitting in a draft file since mid-July), who knows when I might.

Anger: Fear Under Pressure

I’ve been immersed in another wave of perceptual detox and am checking in to share a few thoughts.

I’m feeling moved to speak about this today because even though much of what’s been coming out via subversive channels (subversives being the whistleblowers coming forward to awaken the masses) is shocking and disturbing, my current opinion is… we may need to be shocked out of our complacency to REALLY appreciate the value of “The Light” and all that Light implies (wisdom, love, exposing the shadows…), and accelerate our embodying of it. I now see that exposing myself to disturbing media such as initiates an almost spontaneous cord-cutting between myself and the contrived (or fallen?) world we’ve all participated in our entire lives — multiple lifetimes, even! I’ve been experiencing a quagmire of entanglements falling away — freeing my lazy, habitual perceptions about “what is” in our world and expanding my belief in The Possible. The Incoming.

There was a time when I didn’t want to ‘pollute my consciousness’ with conspiracy theories and the like. I frankly had enough to be concerned with in my immediate surrounds, and raving voices like David Icke were just overload to me. I wanted to focus on “good things,” I didn’t want to energize fear consciousness. I realized that consensus reality obscured truth behind the props and prevailing media-feeds; I just didn’t want my boat rocked any more than it had been already in the stormy seas of life! But my attitude seems to have been changing in recent years, and now I (occasionally) expose myself to “disturbing truths,” specifically those pertaining to powers behind the scenes who are directing the plays we see acted out on the world stage. These dramas are derived fiction but we’ve accepted them as fact, securing our collective disempowerment. Prevailing thought perpetuates the prime-time plotline and the time has come to boycott the “studios” that have kept producing misinformation directly geared for their personal and darkly-motivated gain.

Aligning with our own righteous anger now and then can be a useful motivational tool. Anger is fear under pressure, and pressure is energetically powerful; also potentially volatile. Anger can be used to effectively remove negative conditions from our paths, or remove ourselves from negative paths. I’m not advocating violence or hatred. Anger can inspire us to speak up for ourselves, whereas ongoing, stewing fear will generally serve to depress and paralyze us, draining every ounce of usable energy from us in the process. I sense that America is now a depressed nation. I know I’ve experienced bouts of depression that I try not to let tow me under. I also believe Americans aren’t alone in this mass depression and perceived helplessness during this drawn-out, surreal, frightening time on earth as we all subordinate ourselves to the insanity of the culture-drivers. Anger can trigger us to think in new, problem-solving directions, if we can avoid sliding into habitual and fruitless complaining devoid of any purposeful action. We can use some good clear anger energy, to apply resourcefully to restoring peace, balance, freedom, and correct distribution of resources across this planet… beginning right in our own minds, with the content of our own self-talk about what we chose to focus on and how we chose to buy into it or not. We are allowing prevailing conditions to be what they are.

Have you noticed that the universe seems to be responding to your thoughts and beliefs at warp speed these days? Seriously… thought does seem to become “things” much quicker now than ever before. There IS something to this new energy and its response time to conscious direction. We can effect change, beginning with changing our minds from worried, powerless consciousness to accepting the divine inheritance which is ours, and drawing on the vast wisdom that is part and parcel of that inheritance. We are limitless beings, and that truth just seems too big for us to let ourselves believe in and BE. I believe this consciousness IS gaining ground, and transcendence IS in the wind… I’m just singing about it here as a release valve for my own repressed anger, and to remind MYSELF who we really are beyond these bodies we wear. Once this is obvious defacto reality to our collective BELIEF SYSTEM, all the rest will begin magnetizing into place in a massive synchronistic flow. Believing it’s possible is immensely helpful, imo. It opens the space for new currents of energy, inspiration, and activity.


My current journey involves boldly exploring enough of the many tiers of mass manipulation (in paced increments; it does get intense!), to really allow my intellect as well as my intuitive mind & my soul (which have known this all along) to fully cognize these revelations. This has been serving to accelerate my ever-present hunger and pursuit for true, self-sovereign freedom and personal power… which will lead to my long-awaited reconnection with the Divine, beautiful, harmonic octave of existence. All this other noise has served as a frequency filter that has kept the Real Signal from getting through. This is happening now… and I’ll be interested to see where we’re at as this year plays out, because it looks as though a systemic deconstruction has begun.

This is what “goosed” me to speak to this today: I watched this video, put forth by an author who once believed our world was headed for mass annihalation (wrote a book on this), who now believes it’s heading for peace and healing and was impelled to renounce his former position publicly: (Mount Adams Statement: 2012 & A Golden Age). And one of the women in that video turned my attention to The American Underground Network (AUN). The AUN has put together their own “video class” of sorts, about the secret cadre behind all media, and how it controls what everyone sees, thinks, and even how they feel and respond, all of which is a very predictable formula that has been employed again and again over the ages. This “grass roots” video is admittedly a little hard to flow with at first, because the man with all the info is not a particularly charismatic communicator. They’ve “balanced” him with another man who’s obviously trained as on-air talent, to facilitate the first guy’s delivery. So while the presentation is a bit awkward, there IS information I found useful for my current “flurry” re: what I’m feeding my head. This video’s subject matter reminded me of the old insult, “If I want your opinion, I’ll give it to you.” This is exactly what’s been in practice, ad infinitum.

Curiously, I’m also enamored anew with John Nash’s quest, as depicted in A Beautiful Mind, being –TO ACHIEVE ONE TRULY ORIGINAL IDEA. Can any of us even imagine such an experience? We’ve been entrained to think and believe certain things — and FEEL certain ways about these things — all along. True, there are various themes and versions of “party line,” and we are free to creatively spin input and output. Still… what would breaking through to our actual, TRULY AUTHENTIC, infinite, god-selves BE LIKE?

I’m on board to find out. I believe we all came in when we did to experience this unprecedented Ride of Ages. I suspect what’s coming is presently unimaginable to us, considering our current capacity and “quarantined conditions.” I believe we will be rewarded with revelations of intergalactic, ultra Divine proportions in the near future. It’s all this “transition time” in the interim that poses the greatest challenge. So, returning to my current (and unoriginal) thought, being our collective project of shuttling awakening souls across the chasm between Here (old paradigm) and There (new) as quickly and painlessly as possible. Perhaps by “waking up in the matrix” (admittedly no small thing, the shattering of a belief system) we can get the bridge up and hustle across it to the promised land with minimal collateral damage. One MO could be to use anger (and the fear behind it) as a tool of a spiritual warrior; let it motivate you to contemplate the truth of your soul (without letting it dominate you!), and demonstrate your truth courageously through the life you’ve been given. What else is there to do?