Too Loud Too Hot Too Chaotic Too Much

Contrary to appearances (and the above title), this isn’t a gripe fest. It’s actually a lead-in to an article about “sensory processing disorder,” included below. W


As most readers are aware, I lived with highly active kundalini for years. It changed me – during the “peak period” of it and now, still.

It’s hard, if not impossible, to discern between kundalini and the extraordinary uptick of vibrational frequencies now upon us as we’ve become immersed in an entirely new “field” that’s literally dismantling much of what we’ve considered how things are.

I know many readers relate to this sensation of chronic energetic overwhelm. Intense energies in the body are standard symptoms of a greatly amplified (or unleashed) life force within . . . which is one way of describing awakened kundalini.

Of late I’ve been experiencing heightened embodied “amperage” again; more than ever, actually. I’m supposing it’s my body’s response to the amplified photonic or plasmic surges (or whatever term we might use) now saturating the entire solar system. Continue reading

Are We There Yet?

there-is-no-time-there-never-was-and-there-never-will-be.jpgPosting this new conversation between Lisa Harrison and a woman I’ve not been aware of before… Anaiis Sallas. The topic is Earth 2.0, how to get there from here, and what can happen personally and collectively during the journey.

Anaiis has some perspectives that I enjoyed, some experiences I could relate to (ie awakened kundalini … longstanding acute pain …  also The Monroe Institute… altho I do not associate my kundalini experiences with TMI), as well as a couple of things that struck me more along the lines of “hm, well, maybeeee” … but all in all this is a thoughtful and often illuminating 1.5 hours that I respect enough to post here.  Love … Whitehawk

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Rampage of Lightning & Kundalini


Putting this out for any response/input that might come from readers – tapping the wisdom of the tribe, so to speak, IF anyone has had experience with this who might care to share.

A week or so ago, we had an unusual nocturnal weather event here. It began normally enough: a thunderstorm. Rain poured and at one point thunder and lightning were happening simultaneously immediately overhead, which is of course very loud, unsettling, and too close for comfort. I do not aspire to be struck by lightning any more than I have been already via my own inner lightning, kundalini.

But what came next presented a “new kind of weirdness” for me; I wondered then and still wonder now if this was kundalini related. Continue reading

Mysticism & Madness

13103448_10153396749876394_1960118158192902923_n.jpgDavid McMillin came ‘into view’ yesterday … his particular niche might be of interest.

He has personal experience with kundalini—so helpful to any K experiencer seeking guidance, as “professionals” who are clueless about this energy tend to push drugs, which is beyond exasperating when you’re ‘in it.’

That said, McMillin is now a mental health professional who’s been around many people experiencing manic depression, for instance, and other states that may well be kundalini-related. He is also an adept student of Edgar Cayce as well as the Book of Revelation in the Bible, which Cayce claimed to be all about the human condition.

This hour-long video presentation features decent PowerPoint support to keep it from being just a lecture. He discusses kundalini, health, creativity, mental illness, and how the answer lies in balancing the energies to prevent flailing from ecstasy to agony over and over. Continue reading

Waking Your Navigator in the Dream of Life

Have you noticed your experience of life seeming increasingly dreamlike in nature?  I sure have. The more “awake” we become, the more we re-perceive this “setup” we have! Interesting shift; interesting paradox to acclimate to and navigate within.

Sharing this video quickly before I’m offline for the day. Paul Levy has had quite a ride with his life, including a massive kundalini awakening that came in like lightning to a life tormented by darkness. The question this type of experience tends to raise is “breakdown or breakthrough?” … which typically brings in psychiatric attention, evaluation, drugs, etc.

For those of us thrust into this while NOT in a “safe container” (perhaps an ashram or similar), in the full bustle of western life, this can be a tumultuous and disorienting time. And it can go on. Continue reading

Kundalini & Ego Death


Ego Death by Brendan Monroe

Ego death is something with which I have profound and lasting experience, which I will write about one of these days. I admit to a bit of reluctance to return to the intensity of that space to accomplish this. It’s one of the most impactful things that can happen to a person’s psyche and sense of self, IMHO – aspects of which are luminous to the extent of sensing perfect bliss and divine union, while others can be frightening, disturbing, or at the very least, disorienting.

Meanwhile, here’s a ride on the subject by Jana Dixon, one of the most prolific and deep-diving writers on kundalini around currently – author of the tome, Biology of Kundalini. Even if you only get through the first few paragraphs of her article, I’m thinking you’ll be enriched for it.   ox Whitehawk


The ego protects us from full knowledge of the shadow and to the extent that it does this it also blocks us off from super-consciousness as well.

The ego disappears in these extreme experiences because of the extreme energy going through the hindbrain, sensory-motor cortex and limbic brain. Especially in extreme fight-flight chemistry the prefrontal lobes are disengaged in order for the more instinctive parts of the brain to deal with the danger. During such a spiritual emergency however the sense danger is internally generated. Often the autonomic shock is many times greater than that which we could ever experience in the normal course of a human life.

Just as a virgin only has a limited grasp of what it is to be human prior to having sex, so to those who have not experienced the ecstatic inner-conjunction or a Dark Night also have a limited perception of the height and depth of reality. These extreme events in consciousness make the ego more sober, respectful and humble because of this reorientation of what it is to be Human. This adjustment is largely biochemical. There is both vast expulsion of stored tension-energy and extensive reconstruction of the brains hardware that is brought about by these events. And it is this chemical, energetic and experiential reformation, which leads to what we know as Ego Death… whereas really it should be known as an expansion of the tight boundaries of the Ego to encompass a larger felt-sense of humanization.

What is Ego Death?

Ego death represents the neurodetoxification of fossilized repression, removing the friction and futile cycling of the nervous system, allowing a higher pattern to form. Continue reading

Hot Hot Hot

As timing would have it, I’m posting this RA excerpt about embodied heat on a frigid cold day here in the US central Atlantic coast. But I decided to share it because of the Karen Bishop post, wherein she mentions “just plain hot with periods of burning”  (probably paraphrased here).

I’m actually somewhat amazed that people are still referencing that post daily! And… everyone who knows me in 3D knows, I too have been in chronic overheat punctuated by periods of downright burning for about 15 years and running! Very pleasant :-/.  Heat transmutes. Maybe I’m just a “tough nut to roast”!!?

Enjoy… Whitehawk

RA – courtesy L&L Research – re: HEAT while we transition to higher frequencies:

Questioner: In trying to understand the energies, creative energies, it has occurred to me that I really do not understand why unusable heat is generated as our Earth moves from third into fourth density. I know it has to do with disharmony between the vibrations of third and fourth density but why this would show up as a physical heating within the Earth is beyond me. Can you enlighten me on that? Continue reading

A Marine’s Kundalini Launch

T330_6913_Untitled-6.jpgWhen my Kundalini activated in earnest (from what I now consider a gentler kindling state before the Big Blast), there was next to nothing about this experience online.

Now it’s everywhere. Evidence of a world waking up. I clicked through to youtube this morning via a Facebook link and a couple of clicks later found myself watching this fellow’s story.

I just cannot imagine having a Kundalini awakening while in active duty in the Marines! Precious little down/solo/quiet time, and – as it pains me to imagine – an entire culture built around killing the “other.” Being tough. Etc.  Could there be a greater contrast to kundalini’s purpose?

Below is Sam’s first video, which he made in May 2014. I found it interesting in numerous ways so of course I had to share it with you. The second video I’m posting here is Sam 1-1/2 years later. The change in trajectory of his life is stunning! He morphed from a self-professed “stone-cold atheist” to a spiritual mentor with a method for doing soul readings that he created himself. Continue reading

Human Dreaming & Avian Knowing

This post was originally written on 12/21 – solstice – and is unrelated to the ‘blue avians’ of recent renown.

I’m thrilled to share an amazing story about a highly perceptive budgie (pet parakeet) – who pulled off a stunning feat, and its significance to me personally and you too, possibly, at this time of new beginnings.

The Dream

Night before last, I dreamed I dropped an egg on the kitchen floor. This egg was about half the size of the typical chicken eggs we Americans know so well. Naturally, the egg broke open.

To my amazement, within the primordial little mound of mucous and shell bits, life moved! I was entranced by the impetus of this unformed bit of creation to survive.

I could see its eyes in there, as it stoically started wiggling forward, something like an embryonic jellyfish, if there is such a thing. It quickly began evolving into a nondescript little animal form… and several other broken eggs somehow appeared as well, all alive and evolving in their goopy puddles – when I woke up.

The Little Budgie Who Could

The next day – the day following the curious dream – this rather astonishing story from Mental Floss appeared:

Pet Bird Adopts Store-Bought Egg That Actually Hatches


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The Compass of Compassion

images-1::: I hardly know what to say here (there, or anywhere) anymore.

The state of things is so beyond bizarre… it’s becoming harder to comment on; it’s like an epic blur. In some ways this blur might be deliberate, from the perspective of the generators of this ruse. If they keep the consciousness of the masses in a state of perpetual “spin cycle,” focus and clarity becomes next to impossible for the individual. Humanity is currently in a state of endless distraction, skewed heavily towards generating chronic anxiety and fear.

This is exactly the state of mind that’s receptive to being controlled by others. This “takeover” of the mass consciousness is primarily unconscious on the part of the controlled, but it is solidly THERE, and those who are driving this routine are masterful at perpetuating it by keeping us preoccupied with so many distractions – be they via mind candy or horrifying events – that most people are clueless as to their “puppet status” in its grip. While we don’t bother to master our own WILL centers, we leave ourselves open to manipulation by others who are willful masters – dark ones.

imagesI still endeavor to maintain the notion that this is a time of sublime chaos, meaning, it’s ultimately of high spiritual, moral, or intellectual worth! But we must be aware of the game board and our roles as pawns on it, as it really isn’t OUR game board to begin with. It’s a buffet that serves up the energies we emanate—usually sloppily—in servitude to others. Unconsciously we let this continue, while our own higher guidance and power of will turn a blind eye.

From Chaos to Kairos

As I shared years ago, I “saw” humanity becoming swept into an intense & disorienting chaos that would ultimately result in our mandatory adaptation to living in kairos. “From Chaos to Kairos” became my optimistic mantra.

By “kairos” I’m referring to the impending transition from “kronos” – Greek for linear (tick-tock) time – to existing in a field of “unfolding NOW potentialities,” manifesting into “reality” on the fly, or in the flow, driven by whatever energies/ideas/thought-forms/emotions happen to be dominating that particular unfolding moment.

6970855_orgKairos = living in flow in the ultimate sense. It is ALL about synchronicity, ie, events being drawn in (individually and/or collectively) by resonance; magnetic attraction.

Every moment essentially sets up the following one, and consciousness defines the parameters of the moment.

Just because something is unpleasant doesn’t mean ‘flow’ is absent; it means an unpleasant situation is dominating the field of consciousness (aka the noosphere) at the time, so something ‘unwanted’ (but energized) is flowing in, or through, at that moment.

For instance: we don’t want violence, but violence happens. Perhaps we are so focused on “violence” that the “not wanting” of it keeps its energy strong, regardless. Consider the semantics of “anti war” vs “pro peace,” for instance. The first keeps WAR conceptually energized in the quantum field, whereas the second is about PEACE. The way we language things is of paramount importance! It helps to keep in mind that “quantum physics” is ALL about consciousness not only influencing but creating what we see and experience.

I do go on. :-}

Awakened kundalini (in my case at least) provided windows into certain perceptions that did not foresee only love and luminosity ahead, as so many ‘channels’ were putting forth. Now, I was experiencing my personal “dismemberment” of the former self as well, in sort of a microcosmic form of what was to come en masse. This likely influenced my overall perception of the big picture, as my own journey has had a lot of frankly frightening intensity that I could only surrender to. I understood that *I* had a lot of reconciling of old karmic scata (another Greek word ;)  to deal with… followed by the awareness that, well, it wasn’t all about me! I was certainly experiencing something extraordinary personally… but this was just my corner of the big iceberg.

I have to say, tho, that I did not see this period yawning on & on over years & years the way it has been. I thought it would all “click in” much quicker, like the tumblers of a cosmic safe unlocking, allowing us at long last access to the gifts of an awakened humanity in an ascended world.

I also had no idea the extent to which this world (this reality system) was corrupt, nor did I understand the source(s) of this corruption, and how farrrr they hooked into the human experience, historically and cosmically. Moreover, I hadn’t the vaguest idea how my personal “trails through time” played into this epic story. I’ve been getting glimpses of this in recent months, and to say it’s been a LOT to assimilate would be the understatement of a lifetime! And: I’m only just getting started in this regard.

My aim is to be encouraging; inspiring, if possible. At the very least I endeavor to bring something to your attention that might cause an expansion in how you perceive reality, as it is NOT what we’ve been indoctrinated by religion, education, and media to believe. There is so much to this macrocosmic scenario, our itty human parameters MUST be stretched to not only “get it,” but navigate wisely within it in the near future. What’s happening now is so beyond the parameters of what we’ve known – of what we’ve BEEN – words fail to prepare us. Only the full immersion experience itself will mentor us.


Meanwhile, we must carry on, regardless – glowing! – shining! – as much as possible. Everywhere I turn, I see people not thriving. Of course, some ARE! It seems those who’ve been stable and highly functioning all along are continuing to do so. They are still “on track.” At least, until it all “hits the fan,” at which point we shall see.

But what I’m mostly aware of is people in dire straits. Numerous “celebrity way-showers” of  20-ish to 10-ish years ago – whose newsletters and videos were like life supports to many experiencers “in the trenches” (ie, kundalini, or ascension 1st-wavers, or contactees with other realms & entities) are now impoverished, homeless, disowned by families and friends, and maybe worst of all, feeling abandoned by life itself. Or they’ve died. All they’ve been through; all they’ve shared with us; all the time and energy they invested in helping prepare all who followed for what is coming… brings them to these desolated outcomes? Virtually “worshipped” by throngs one day, then pfft – out with the trash.

As for me – it has indeed been rough. I know there are people around me who just can’t imagine what my “problem” is. I often wonder myself, as my particular experiences have been truly extraordinary. Then suddenly *something* so seemingly beyond earthly possibility happened, leaving me … here … wherever here is.

What I’m “on about” today may not be making sense to you. I feel as tho I’ve been in an accelerated course of broader insight, where (among other things) I realize every single soul is in a reality bubble all their own (every mind has developed its own world view and role in it) and typically don’t relate to others’ POV and lives in general. A fine stew of interpersonal fragmentation. Where will it lead us?

It can be so very helpful to remember the COMPASS in (or of) COMPASSION.

No: we don’t understand “him/her/them/it.” No: we can’t imagine seeing or doing something the way “they” have. No: they are so screwed up; why can’t they see the damage they’re doing!? 

We can (and do) repeat these judgmental recordings over and over, but lately I’ve been practicing aligning my compass with compassion, and it’s nice, so I invite you to try the same.

Judging is tiring. Compassion is enlivening. Compassion seems to lighten the load of negativity and lift one’s spirits. You know you’re tracking higher frequencies – even when someone’s behaviors or beliefs appall you to the nth degree – when you can reel in the auto-reaction and place the entire situation (the person, the behavior, the victims of it, etc) into a softly illuminated ball of compassion.

imagesLike forgiveness, compassion works both ways. We live in a quantum system of ‘reflection.’ Next time you throw daggers of judgment at someone, try putting a mirror in front of you, in place of your projections onto them. THEN practice generating your compassion. Maybe instead of throwing those daggers, toss flowers of acceptance at yourself. Harsh judgment typically germinates in one’s own woundedness.

Just a thought.

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Kundalini: Awakening or Psychosis?

I remember first reading about Paul Levy’s experiences about 12-15 years ago. If memory serves, he had a rough relationship with his father, before his kundalini ‘exploded’ in a sudden and radical way.  This phenomenon typically plays out very differently from person to person; it seems to depend very much on the experiencer’s “contents” (psyche, spirit, and body) that need to be “moved” to clear the path for a pronounced up-shift in consciousness to occur.

The process can range from blissful to shockingly unpleasant and physically painful – causing the person and those around him to often respond with fear. Spiritual emergence can quickly become a spiritual emergency, and contemporary western civilization is not prepared to support someone anywhere along this spectrum. The following article, which  originally appeared on, is somewhat unique in that it tends to be women who experience and write about kundalini.  ~Whitehawk

Imagine having a kundalini awakening and having the gift of literally seeing the connection of all human beings, then being diagnosed as psychotic. That’s what happened to this man after his spiritual awakening!

by Paul Levy

In 1981, I was sitting in meditation when, just for an instant, a bolt of lightning flashed through my mind. I began acting so unlike my normal self that a friend brought me to a hospital, afraid I was going crazy. Though I was let out of that hospital after three days, the experiences that began to unfold were so overwhelming that I was hospitalized a number of other times during that first year. I was diagnosed as having had a severe psychotic break and was told that I had a chemical imbalance and had manic-depressive illness. I was put on lithium, and at times, haldol (an anti-psychotic). I was told I would have to live with my illness for the rest of my life.

xfhdzfhdzfhdxI was one of the lucky ones, as I was able to extricate myself from the medical and psychiatric establishment. Little did the doctors realize that I was taking part in some sort of spiritual awakening/shamanic initiation process, which at times mimicked psychosis but in actuality was an experience of a far different order. In 1993, after many years of struggling to contain and integrate my experiences, I started to teach about what I was realizing. I am now in private practice, assisting others who were spiritually emerging and beginning to wake up to the dreamlike nature of reality. In a dream come true, psychiatrists consult with me and send me patients.

In ancient wisdom cultures it was understood that there were certain individuals whose craziness was the sign of a passage into a higher consciousness. They realized that the person needed to be both honored and supported in their process. Continue reading

Sex Energy on the Brain

Well, an article about Kundalini turned up on Huffington Post! The word is getting around. This was written by author Peggy Payne, whose book Cobalt Blue is a fictional account of an artist’s kundalini awakening. I notice her numerous resources on the matter do not include “my” Kundalini Rising so naturally I had to link it in here myself. :-}

Here, deep in the white stuff (snow) and going wacky with cabin fever and terrible internet service. Hope all is well out there… ox Whitehawk

Kundalini: It’s not a pasta. The Sanskrit root of the word means coiled or spiral. The image of a snake piled on itself or two snakes rising is used to depict this reservoir of energy at the base of the spine.

Don’t look for it on anatomical charts, though. It’s not recognized by Western medicine. But growing numbers seek the raising of kundalini and many feel that the experience of kundalini in their bodies is as hard to miss as a hurricane.

The ideal result is variously described as union with the divine, one-ness with all being, super-consciousness.

I’m not one of the awakened, have only felt a blip–more on this later. Yet I’m in the camp of those who are pretty sure that “there’s something to it.” (Total disclosure: my novel Cobalt Blue is about an artist’s turbulent kundalini awakening.)

I was fascinated to read recently the personal accounts that make up most of JJ Semple’s new book, Biology of Consciousness: Case Studies in Kundalini. Semple defines kundalini as:

…A biological subsystem that remains inactive until summoned through meditation or other triggers that, once activated, send distilled sexual energy to the brain via the sexual sublimation process.

A Hurricane of Energy

The awakening accounts are dramatic. From Vikram G.:

One day, at the culmination of the sexual act with my wife, and while the (Indian classical) music was playing, I heard a cracking noise at the base of my spine. It was the most intense orgasm in my life; something ran through my entire being and it overwhelmed me…

I ‘saw’ …everything as vibrations. The music, the streams of water, the glimmering light from the bulb above me.

2015-02-20-kundalinipic2.jpgIn her spiritual memoir Female Kundalini, Margaret Dempsey reports:

…I felt an energy rise up from within me, and I began to shake. Not an abnormal condition or convulsion, but a physical energy rocking my whole body.

Triggers cited include meditation, yoga, sexual activity, psychedelics, and the trance of making art. There are many reports as well of spontaneous uprising.

Barbara Hand Clow, author of Astrology and the Rising of Kundalini, suggests that mid-life crisis is a peak time for such experiences.

Kundalini yoga is many Westerners’ introduction to the term. This practice, and arguably all physical practice of yoga, is designed to rouse consciousness to its highest potential through raising kundalini energy. I wonder whether most of those who attend kundalini yoga classes know this.

Similar concepts appear in many traditions. Chi is probably the best known example; originating in China’s oldest religions, it refers to energy that permeates everything.

A Shocking Awakening

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Sacred Masc/Fem, Twin Souls, Tantric Sex, Shakti, Art

Venus & Her LoverI came upon this mature & worldly couple living a juicy, highly creative & colorful life in Ecuador.

They inspire me…

Perhaps you’ll appreciate this interesting pair in a 1:23:00 video interview with the Conscious Consumer Network. There’s much more info at their illustrious website, linked at the end.

I particularly enjoyed the fact that their hair is silver AND they’re wonderfully *luscious* with life!

ox W

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Traditional Hindu View of Sexual Tantra


Anyone who has experienced a kundalini awakening will enter into some degree of sexual tantra awareness. At least, it would seem so to me that the two are connected part-and-parcel. This subject is also connected to one of my recent experiences that I’m still working on writing up for you.

In this 8-minute video snip, Yogacharya Basile P. Catoméris explains to ‘New Realities’ host Alan Steinfeld how tantric practice has been understood in traditional (and ancient) Hindu tradition. Note the term ‘shakti’ is virtually interchangeable with kundalini.

(Kundalini might be considered technically as the ‘immediate embodiment‘ of this energy, whereas shakti refers to a more expansive plasmic presence of it, or her, if you hold the ‘Goddess Kundalini’ belief. This has been my sense, but I may not be on target traditionally.)

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The Price Jung Paid

Greetings friends. Today I’m sharing a piece by author, shaman, dream journeyer extraordinaire Robert Moss. He’s penned some of the best material about dreaming and consciousness around. This is from his blog, linked at the end.

Red Book faces

faces from Jung’s Red Book journal

Today Moss’s subject is Jung’s plunge into some very dark depths, as he (Jung) journaled about in his amazing self-penned and self-illustrated Red Book, which he stipulated in his will should not be released for public consumption until something like 50 years after his death.

I believe passages like this point to Jung having had a kundalini awakening, and all the bizarreness that active K can bring. I also believe that it was his unrelenting exploration of consciousness that triggered it–same as I believe re: my own experience. That same strength of his courage to go deep is also what brought him through.

So often, questing spirits think kundalini is all about the bliss, but it will typically bring up every iota of NOT BLISS that the human psyche (and body) holds to be witnessed, felt, and reconciled. Kundalini is probably more about purging every physical, psychological, and spiritual nook and cranny than anything else! … which frees one to be who/what they REALLY ARE beneath all the wounding – a gleaming fractal of the ONE.

There’s no shortcut to true awakening and enduring enlightenment. If someone has a brief “whoopee” joyride with “kundalini,” (or so they may think) it simply must have been their karma to have very little debris to clear at this time! Either that or what they attained was more a preview than anything lasting. And btw it’s quite possible too, that, post-kundalini, one will be more sensitive to every pain or sadness in the world as one will know the “bliss.”

Following is from Robert Moss. Love all ~W

The Price Jung Paid

If you choose to venture into Jung’s Red Book, I strongly advise you to do so more cautiously than I did. I stayed with it for three days and nights, without much sleep, following Jung on his Underworld journey. There was one moment, in particular, when I became very angry with him.

He recounts a vision in which he comes upon the mutilated corpse of a murdered girl, and this fills him with grief and rage. A veiled woman appears and tells him he must remove the child’s liver and eat part of it, to atone for the crime. He must take on the guilt, because he is a man and a man was responsible. Jung writhes in resistance, disgusted and horrified, but finally complies.

I kneel down on the stone, cut off a piece of the liver and put it in my mouth.My gorge rises – tears burst from my eyes – cold sweat covers my brow – dull sweet taste of blood – I swallow with desperate efforts – it is impossible – once again and once again – I almost faint – it is done. The horror has been accomplished. [1]

I wanted to throw the book across the room, but stopped myself, reflecting that this tombstone of a tome would break the furniture. I read on. The woman who commanded this cannibal act throws back her veil, revealing a lovely face, and tells Jung, “I am your soul.”

You will need a strong stomach for some of this. And you will need to be ready to accompany Jung, quite literally, in and out of the madhouse. But persistence will be rewarded.   Continue reading