Kundalini: Awakening or Psychosis?

I remember first reading about Paul Levy’s experiences about 12-15 years ago. If memory serves, he had a rough relationship with his father, before his kundalini ‘exploded’ in a sudden and radical way.  This phenomenon typically plays out very differently from person to person; it seems to depend very much on the experiencer’s “contents” (psyche, spirit, and body) that need to be “moved” to clear the path for a pronounced up-shift in consciousness to occur.

The process can range from blissful to shockingly unpleasant and physically painful – causing the person and those around him to often respond with fear. Spiritual emergence can quickly become a spiritual emergency, and contemporary western civilization is not prepared to support someone anywhere along this spectrum. The following article, which  originally appeared on in5d.com, is somewhat unique in that it tends to be women who experience and write about kundalini.  ~Whitehawk


Imagine having a kundalini awakening and having the gift of literally seeing the connection of all human beings, then being diagnosed as psychotic. That’s what happened to this man after his spiritual awakening!

by Paul Levy

In 1981, I was sitting in meditation when, just for an instant, a bolt of lightning flashed through my mind. I began acting so unlike my normal self that a friend brought me to a hospital, afraid I was going crazy. Though I was let out of that hospital after three days, the experiences that began to unfold were so overwhelming that I was hospitalized a number of other times during that first year. I was diagnosed as having had a severe psychotic break and was told that I had a chemical imbalance and had manic-depressive illness. I was put on lithium, and at times, haldol (an anti-psychotic). I was told I would have to live with my illness for the rest of my life.

xfhdzfhdzfhdxI was one of the lucky ones, as I was able to extricate myself from the medical and psychiatric establishment. Little did the doctors realize that I was taking part in some sort of spiritual awakening/shamanic initiation process, which at times mimicked psychosis but in actuality was an experience of a far different order. In 1993, after many years of struggling to contain and integrate my experiences, I started to teach about what I was realizing. I am now in private practice, assisting others who were spiritually emerging and beginning to wake up to the dreamlike nature of reality. In a dream come true, psychiatrists consult with me and send me patients.

In ancient wisdom cultures it was understood that there were certain individuals whose craziness was the sign of a passage into a higher consciousness. They realized that the person needed to be both honored and supported in their process. Continue reading

Sex Energy on the Brain

Well, an article about Kundalini turned up on Huffington Post! The word is getting around. This was written by author Peggy Payne, whose book Cobalt Blue is a fictional account of an artist’s kundalini awakening. I notice her numerous resources on the matter do not include “my” Kundalini Rising so naturally I had to link it in here myself. :-}

Here, deep in the white stuff (snow) and going wacky with cabin fever and terrible internet service. Hope all is well out there… ox Whitehawk


Kundalini: It’s not a pasta. The Sanskrit root of the word means coiled or spiral. The image of a snake piled on itself or two snakes rising is used to depict this reservoir of energy at the base of the spine.

Don’t look for it on anatomical charts, though. It’s not recognized by Western medicine. But growing numbers seek the raising of kundalini and many feel that the experience of kundalini in their bodies is as hard to miss as a hurricane.

The ideal result is variously described as union with the divine, one-ness with all being, super-consciousness.

I’m not one of the awakened, have only felt a blip–more on this later. Yet I’m in the camp of those who are pretty sure that “there’s something to it.” (Total disclosure: my novel Cobalt Blue is about an artist’s turbulent kundalini awakening.)

I was fascinated to read recently the personal accounts that make up most of JJ Semple’s new book, Biology of Consciousness: Case Studies in Kundalini. Semple defines kundalini as:

…A biological subsystem that remains inactive until summoned through meditation or other triggers that, once activated, send distilled sexual energy to the brain via the sexual sublimation process.

A Hurricane of Energy

The awakening accounts are dramatic. From Vikram G.:

One day, at the culmination of the sexual act with my wife, and while the (Indian classical) music was playing, I heard a cracking noise at the base of my spine. It was the most intense orgasm in my life; something ran through my entire being and it overwhelmed me…

I ‘saw’ …everything as vibrations. The music, the streams of water, the glimmering light from the bulb above me.

2015-02-20-kundalinipic2.jpgIn her spiritual memoir Female Kundalini, Margaret Dempsey reports:

…I felt an energy rise up from within me, and I began to shake. Not an abnormal condition or convulsion, but a physical energy rocking my whole body.

Triggers cited include meditation, yoga, sexual activity, psychedelics, and the trance of making art. There are many reports as well of spontaneous uprising.

Barbara Hand Clow, author of Astrology and the Rising of Kundalini, suggests that mid-life crisis is a peak time for such experiences.

Kundalini yoga is many Westerners’ introduction to the term. This practice, and arguably all physical practice of yoga, is designed to rouse consciousness to its highest potential through raising kundalini energy. I wonder whether most of those who attend kundalini yoga classes know this.

Similar concepts appear in many traditions. Chi is probably the best known example; originating in China’s oldest religions, it refers to energy that permeates everything.

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Sacred Masc/Fem, Twin Souls, Tantric Sex, Shakti, Art

Venus & Her LoverI came upon this mature & worldly couple living a juicy, highly creative & colorful life in Ecuador.

They inspire me…

Perhaps you’ll appreciate this interesting pair in a 1:23:00 video interview with the Conscious Consumer Network. There’s much more info at their illustrious website, linked at the end.

I particularly enjoyed the fact that their hair is silver AND they’re wonderfully *luscious* with life!

ox W

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Traditional Hindu View of Sexual Tantra

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Anyone who has experienced a kundalini awakening will enter into some degree of sexual tantra awareness. At least, it would seem so to me that the two are connected part-and-parcel. This subject is also connected to one of my recent experiences that I’m still working on writing up for you.

In this 8-minute video snip, Yogacharya Basile P. Catoméris explains to ‘New Realities’ host Alan Steinfeld how tantric practice has been understood in traditional (and ancient) Hindu tradition. Note the term ‘shakti’ is virtually interchangeable with kundalini.

(Kundalini might be considered technically as the ‘immediate embodiment‘ of this energy, whereas shakti refers to a more expansive plasmic presence of it, or her, if you hold the ‘Goddess Kundalini’ belief. This has been my sense, but I may not be on target traditionally.)

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The Price Jung Paid

Greetings friends. Today I’m sharing a piece by author, shaman, dream journeyer extraordinaire Robert Moss. He’s penned some of the best material about dreaming and consciousness around. This is from his blog, linked at the end.

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faces from Jung’s Red Book journal

Today Moss’s subject is Jung’s plunge into some very dark depths, as he (Jung) journaled about in his amazing self-penned and self-illustrated Red Book, which he stipulated in his will should not be released for public consumption until something like 50 years after his death.

I believe passages like this point to Jung having had a kundalini awakening, and all the bizarreness that active K can bring. I also believe that it was his unrelenting exploration of consciousness that triggered it–same as I believe re: my own experience. That same strength of his courage to go deep is also what brought him through.

So often, questing spirits think kundalini is all about the bliss, but it will typically bring up every iota of NOT BLISS that the human psyche (and body) holds to be witnessed, felt, and reconciled. Kundalini is probably more about purging every physical, psychological, and spiritual nook and cranny than anything else! … which frees one to be who/what they REALLY ARE beneath all the wounding – a gleaming fractal of the ONE.

There’s no shortcut to true awakening and enduring enlightenment. If someone has a brief “whoopee” joyride with “kundalini,” (or so they may think) it simply must have been their karma to have very little debris to clear at this time! Either that or what they attained was more a preview than anything lasting. And btw it’s quite possible too, that, post-kundalini, one will be more sensitive to every pain or sadness in the world as one will know the “bliss.”

Following is from Robert Moss. Love all ~W


The Price Jung Paid

If you choose to venture into Jung’s Red Book, I strongly advise you to do so more cautiously than I did. I stayed with it for three days and nights, without much sleep, following Jung on his Underworld journey. There was one moment, in particular, when I became very angry with him.

He recounts a vision in which he comes upon the mutilated corpse of a murdered girl, and this fills him with grief and rage. A veiled woman appears and tells him he must remove the child’s liver and eat part of it, to atone for the crime. He must take on the guilt, because he is a man and a man was responsible. Jung writhes in resistance, disgusted and horrified, but finally complies.

I kneel down on the stone, cut off a piece of the liver and put it in my mouth.My gorge rises – tears burst from my eyes – cold sweat covers my brow – dull sweet taste of blood – I swallow with desperate efforts – it is impossible – once again and once again – I almost faint – it is done. The horror has been accomplished. [1]

I wanted to throw the book across the room, but stopped myself, reflecting that this tombstone of a tome would break the furniture. I read on. The woman who commanded this cannibal act throws back her veil, revealing a lovely face, and tells Jung, “I am your soul.”

You will need a strong stomach for some of this. And you will need to be ready to accompany Jung, quite literally, in and out of the madhouse. But persistence will be rewarded.   Continue reading

Shamanic Dismemberment via Kundalini

Strange days indeed. This day has been crazy weird in many ways. And I awoke into it with a migraine for good measure.multidimensional-self

First up: Though I do not have television, I heard about the highly suspicious (to me anyway; mass messaging is mega power) event that happened this morning in broadcasting.

The White House interrupted programming for an ’emergency announcement,’ then warned viewers to stay off their telephones (!) and moreover, said that they (gov’t) were going to change the channel on all TVs, and then everyone’s channels changed!

I am so floored by this, I have no words. The fact that the gov’t can simply remote-control actual televisions (we already know they control the content, by and large, in America today, to control ‘the agenda’) makes for quite a leap re: the manipulation of the masses. I’m still digesting this event, which I just learned about an hour ago.

Mass Chaos from Amplified, Accelerated Energies?

Also in today’s news, the body of a local university student who went missing over a month ago was discovered on a rural homestead a mere minute from the farm of dear friends of mine. There has been an ongoing plucking of young girls right off the sidewalks, or from gas stations, etc, since I moved here… girls never to be heard from again. I’ve wondered if they were forced into underground slavery — a shockingly robust nightmare for thousands of young people in the US and elsewhere. In this case, however, it’s been proven murder. In this quiet, rural area near one of the highest-ranked public universities in America.

No place is exempt the madness, obviously. And lastly the dreadful news of another high school shooting near Seattle.

AND of course this massive solar eruption blasting forth as I type, scrambling all kinds of energy systems here on earth, including brains, psyches, and who knows what all! What a day! What an unusual post on this blog as well.

Meanwhile, I notice that the “vintage” post on this blog about and by the late El Collie’s kundalini experiences has been getting many hits lately, which prompted me to pay her website a (re)visit to have a look around. Since humanity itself appears to be in a mass shamanic dismemberment presently, I’ve decided to repost her essay about Kundalini and Darkness. The Dark Night so many experiencers come to during their kundalini activation. Maybe the cosmic energies upon us have reached a tipping point where they are causing a global initiation. What do you think? The rest of this extensive post is in the voice of El Collie.

Bless all; stay safe… Whitehawk


THE DARKNESS BEFORE THE DAWN

One thing that comes out in myths is that at the bottom of the abyss comes the voice of salvation. The black moment is the moment when the real message of transformation is going to come. At the darkest moment comes the light.

— Joseph Campbell

Some parts of the spiritual journey feel as if we’re lost in a wasteland,
not knowing where we are or where we’re going, and wondering if we’re just traveling in circles. For long stretches of the journey, the quest requires great self-investment for seemingly little in return. For individuals who adhere to a particular spiritual discipline, commitment wavers during these dry spells. For those in whom the Kundalini has autonomously risen, there is no alternative, no possibility of backing out. Kundalini has Her own unstoppable momentum. Continue reading

Quantum of Light

by Lisa Renee

Dear Ascending Family,

For many years the Omniversal Family Tree of Krystal Star known as the Guardians, have been relaying a wide array of information about the Ascension process that our planet and human bodies undergo at the end of an Astrological Age. We are moving into another interval of the higher octave through the bifurcation of time fields, which results in the phenomena of timeline collapse. For many, this manifests as a bookend to delineate the ending of the past, such as ancestral patterns and forces many of us to undergo a resetting of our inner foundation and way of life. These phases of timeline collapse generally bring with them many levels of exit points, resetting, ego dismantling in order to extract the false and reinstate a more accurate and progressive direction for the Soul. We must progress towards group consciousness and being of service to the whole. For those unaware of Ascension, the uninitiated or uninformed; this time can be confusing and painful to navigate.

Currently, little is understood about the consciousness evolution process nor allowed in the mainstream to bring this topic into greater credibility, thus visibility to the masses.

At the end of the Precession of Equinoxes, we align to the galactic core; Stargate portals open, and we are eligible to proceed with an Ascension timeline, the beginning of the next grand cycle. Continue reading

The Shamanic View of Mental Illness

One major difficulty someone in the West has when seeking his or her way through a journey with awakened kundalini is the knowing that any Western “health” agency or agent would diagnose it as a state of illness instead of an organic, psycho-spiritual correction/expansion/healing endeavoring to process out to completion.  It is my prayer that wisdom along these lines will be available to all in the very near future.

And, totally unrelated to this post, I’m sharing this photo of an “anomaly” near the sun captured by satellite cameras yesterday. Like looking in the mirror – haha!ufo+angle+sun+anomalies

Love to you,

Whitehawk

What Shamans See in a Mental Hospital

In the shamanic view, mental illness signals “the birth of a healer,” explains Malidoma Patrice Somé. Thus, mental disorders are spiritual emergencies, spiritual crises, and need to be regarded as such to aid the healer in being born.

What those in the West view as mental illness, the Dagara people regard as “good news from the other world.” The person going through the crisis has been chosen as a medium for a message to the community that needs to be communicated from the spirit realm. “Mental disorder, behavioral disorder of all kinds, signal the fact that two obviously incompatible energies have merged into the same field,” says Dr. Somé. These disturbances result when the person does not get assistance in dealing with the presence of the energy from the spirit realm.

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Fast Ride with Sacha Stone & Dan Winter

Wow. I can’t even begin to introduce or describe what goes down in this fast-moving, far-reaching and graphically endowed cosmic conversation between Sacha Stone and upbeat physicist/shaman/kundalini experiencer Dan Winter. Just tune in and see what can happen in 29 minutes. Maybe a few times :-}

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Life & Death & that Single Separating Breath

I’ve been conflicted about sharing a recent experience with you. It’s a bit intense, and some might interpret the overall atmosphere of this post as morose; a downer,  because it deals with death. But my intention is to share something I found quite illuminating, once it became apparent my life in this world would continue! I believe by the time you reach the end of this post, you’ll feel uplifted.

Actually Inelia Benz’s new message provided the nudge I needed to go ahead and speak up re: this. She mentions being “down with a massive headache since the equinox.” Her message is the one immediately prior to (below) this one on the blog. I initially intended to included it at the end of mine in the same post, but mine grew too long.

So, on with my experience.stock-footage

Oh. My. God. The massive headache. I mean, obviously I’m not glad to hear that Inelia’s been suffering, but in honesty I was somewhat relieved as well because what happened to me in the wake of the equinox was incredibly intense. Alarming. To the extent I was genuinely concerned I might be on the brink of crossing over. Now I feel less alone, which makes this whole thing less about me and more about all of us in this energetic shakeup.

More about that in a moment… but as a lead-in, the confession that I’ve been acutely aware of death in recent weeks. Months, actually. Front-burner theme, coming from many directions, including sudden deaths of people in my orbit. Young(ish) people.

Two of these crossings – both women – were caused by brain hemorrhages. Spontaneous “brain bleeds” … sudden death. Continue reading

The Constant Companions

In this post, Aisha North offers a perfect description of an aspect or manifestation of awakened kundalini: it can at times feel as though you’re being discombobbled beyond your tolerance limit.

Ascension and kundalini demonstrate that what’s going on now is about transmuting lower energies from not only this life, but other incarnations too; and not only yours, but also your bio-lineages (unresolved family issues) are bundled in with this vast process as well.

Ascension is in many ways a mass shamanic dis-memberment (as is kundalini on an individual level), integral to the journey toward re-membering and returning to our soul’s divinity and ultimate oneness with all.   ox Whitehawk

The Constant Companions

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A Short Update on the Energies – February 20, 2014

Aisha North Manuscript of SurvivalAs many of you may have noticed, this ongoing intensifying of energetic upgrading is barely taking a pause these days, and so, you may be apt to think that this time, it will be too much for your hapless body. That is certainly not the case here, for if you manage to dive below that churning surface of energetic chaos, you will find that you are actually growing more resilient and balanced by the day.

We know this may be cause for disbelief for many of you, for we are well aware that this round of energetic combustion will have lit a fire under the feet of many an issue that still lingers somewhere in your system. And yes, we do mean that as in issues stemming from earlier lives as well. For this is indeed the most thorough “housecleaning” you will ever have, and as such, this rattling of the cage will have the last few remnants of anything previously undiscovered rolling out from its hiding place.

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Adrenaline Rush/Kundalini Initiation

Following is the first message I’m posting from astrologer Mark Borax (link at the end). It’s about Uranus going direct after a long retrograde. Considering this is one of my ruling planets (the other being Saturn)… I’m hoping its going direct does in fact move me along a bit!  This is not only about me, though, of course; it’s a universal influence. So… hang in there til the 17th of the month if you’re looking for an acceleration in your world.  If you’re already flying… you might want to put some breaks in place so you don’t fling right out of orbit when this release kicks in. :)   ox Whitehawk

December, 2013
Putney Mountain, Vermont   from A Different Kind of Art

On December 17 at 12:40 PM Eastern U.S. time, the ice giant Uranus goes direct in 9 Aries, an event destined to send hot and cold chills up and down your spine.

If you’ve experienced trapped energies and stalled momentums since the summer (when Uranus went retrograde in mid-July) it’s likely that those stuck forces will get undammed as the river of life force surges its banks in the coming Uranian turnaround.

Uranus presides over the highest vantage point we possess. It takes the most accelerated parts of you and accelerates them, so get ready for a release of energies that may pop circuit breakers left and right, and spin you around into some new state of being.

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What is Kundalini?

From the blog, Waking the Infinite (linked at end):

37629_1490543017120_1040322401_1366466_8191901_nThere are plenty of descriptions out there to help with what kundalini is, much of it quite old.  Texts, scrolls, things like that.  This is a very human thing, so you’d think we could each come up with something that helps to clarify things a little.  What I am going to tell you is directly from my own experience and it reflects seven years living with this force in my life through a number of colors, twists, and turns in my life and in perspective, too.

There is a LOT that kundalini or awakening can be presumed to be, and then there is what settles out and clarifies over time.  Which is what my experience has been.  You would think an experience would be an experience, but our perceptions do indeed change as our biases clear and change.  The writer Anais Nin said we see the world not as it is, but as we are.  SO true.

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Re-perceiving Life with Awakened Kundalini

I just watched this video of Lilou Mace interviewing Dr. Manjit Samanta-Laughton (author of Punk Science and The Genius Groove) and recommend it. This woman’s kundalini awakened at age 18 when she was practicing kundalini yoga, and her awakened awareness has been beautifully integrated into her life and career, which I find so inspiring. (Makes me wonder how my trajectory might have gone, had my K activated much earlier in life!) I think you will find her of interest! She is a paradigm shifter extraordinaire, living a magical life. Following copy is from her website (linked at end of this post):

We are in the middle of a Paradigm Revolution. All of our societal systems are undergoing tremendous upheaval as we transition from a mechanistic, disconnected way of life to a new world which places consciousness at the heart of the universe and is open to the multidimensions. The changes can be felt in all areas of life – from our economy to our educational systems to religion to healthcare to science. As we move from the old ideas to the new, our lives are starting to open up to a new reality. Continue reading