The last couple of days have been rough.  Intense head pain, dizziness, nausea… punctuated by occasional stabs to the abdomen. During the entire first day of this (Mon) I assumed I was heading into a migraine, likely due to a barometric shift in the atmosphere or some such.  But… the pain did everything but settle into a migraine pattern. It was during Day 2 that I realized I was picking up on the chaos in the environment: the quake in China, compounded by the devastation in Myanmar, the series of tornadoes pummeling the US heartland, and the fires in Florida.  So much despair.  To a sensitive, just existing while such things go on is like struggling with extreme sea-sickness with a simultaneous concussion.  So violent can storms in the energetic ocean become.

I don’t know why this awareness hasn’t become obvious to me by now; it is a recurring event, my getting hit physically when something big rocks ‘the matrix.’  I don’t know if whatever it is reverbing in my personal field has more to do with violence unleashing in nature, or the human suffering triggered as a result.  I suspect a measure of both.  Obviously my issues pale in comparison to what millions are enduring, planet-wide, as I sit in my office writing. But I just thought I’d mention this for others who might happen along here, possibly newcomers to the ‘high strangeness’ I talk about in this blog, who’ve been dreadfully ill lately — suddenly, and seemingly for “no apparent reason.”  You, too, might be environmentally empathic.

Again I will refer to Tom Kenyon and the Hathor material he brings through — not that there that isn’t a wealth of other wonderful assistance out there, but I’ve already posted about the Hathors here, and since I’m still quite “hung over,” it’s easiest for me to point that way again: specifically, this time, I’m referring to the ”Holon of Balance” exercise.  You create a double-pyramid energetic structure (base to base) to stablize within, where the two bases connect.  It seems to deflect or neutralize tidal waves of rampant energy.  The Holon is explained here: http://tomkenyon.com/managing-subtle-energy-during-earth-changes/.  Best to work with it regularly, so it comes naturally if and when you really need it.  (Obviously I should heed my own advice ;)  

Also, there’s a comprehensive program online for empaths that helps many; it is called DreamTongue, and you can find it here, if you are a suffering empath desiring support and guidance: www.mysilentecho.com/dreamtongue.html

More later…   W

Today, Monday May 12, another earthquake has hit Asia — 7.8 in central China this time, right in the wake of the Myanmar cyclone disaster, geographically south/southwest of China. 

Interpreters of the ancient, articulate and astonishing Mayan calendar tell us that 2008 is the Big Year for Big (and not necessarily pleasant) Changes — geophysical and societal.  I personally sense the truth of this.  We will see (some of us at a far closer vantage point than we’d like) escalating geophysical activities as the earth stretches and moans and seeks to create greater comfort for herself in the transmuting local cosmology.  I happen to live near what has been called the greatest fault line on this (N. American) continent — the New Madrid fault.  This fault activated during April, the first time in decades.  A hundred years back, its quaking demolished towns and “rang bells in Boston churchtowers.”  It is this fault line that creates the Mississippi River, and its subtle movements are said to be the real cause of that bridge collapsing in Minneapolis last year. 

I watched a video over the weekend of prophecies (ET-sourced) of how these changes are expected to play out here in the US.  According to this info (remember–discernment), New Madrid hits hardest, first — before the west coast and northeast coast faults do their inevitable Big Things.  This video showed a map of the continent being diagonally ’twisted’ from the southwest to the northeast, as the plates beneath us grind into their new positions during all the electromagnetic commotion in play currently in our planet and solar system.  The New Madrid fault has always been prophesied to cause this continent to break into two distinct land masses, with the Great Lakes flooding a southbound path 200 miles wide and pouring into the Gulf of Mexico.  I used to have dreams in my youth of my neighborhood being under water… I’ve always wondered if they were premonitions.  (Pictured: future map as
envisioned by Gordon Michael Scallion.)

Why am I talking about this?  Something about the news of China, right after seeing this video over the weekend, plus the recent quake in my “own backyard,” I suppose, has me pondering.  I’ve been wanting to leave this area for years, but haven’t received the Big Signal as to WHERE is next, or HOW – a tough spot to be in.   I know many are in similar positions, feeling the strong pulsation to relocate, as we realize that the foundation of our lives is shifting, or HAS shifted, and yet we are not yet seeing the Way.  I hear about people whose lives are simply dissolving right out from under them: jobs dissappearing, marriages dissolving, family and/or pets dying, long-time friends suddenly leaving the area as their “sirens” go off and they are guided elsewhere.  It is a time of deep change for many.  Change tends to bring up fear — often intense fear.  And prolonged fear easily spawns depression, illness, high anxiety, and other forms of pain.  I have certainly experienced all of this, and am not immune to it now.  We live in intense times.  We live in a transmuting reality construct; what we are facing now we have not been prepared for by our education.   People we turn to for guidance are often people we’ve never met; they might not even be PEOPLE, for that matter!  So much of what has made sense to me in recent years has come from beings in higher planes, that I mulch over to determine whether I “buy in” or not to their information. 

The best advice anyone can offer or heed right now — so I offer it to you, dear visitor – is to make a serious, consistent practice of meditation.  Request and intend illumined guidance for your personal situation, and state your situation.  Sit in silence and receptivity.  I use the word meditate to mean, to simply listen - as opposed to mentally yakking to yourself, or reciting affirmations, or (worst case) repeating over and over all that’s horrendous in your life, and begging to be saved.  When not meditating, there are mental practices to work with to narrow the gap between where you’re at and where you want to be.  Use the power of your languaging to shift gradually from frantic freaked out self talk toward language that represents where you are heading.  So, screaming “help me, help me, my life is totally screwed!!” can be consciously guided to less hysterical framing, ie, “I know there is a way through this, and even though I may not see it yet, I trust I will in right timing,” etc.  We are now needing to function in KAIROS time — aka “God’s timing,” which is moment to moment, as opposed to chronos, or planned-in-advance chronological time.  Adapting to FLOWING in the NOW has never been more crucial.

An important point I’m trying to make is, this is all an INSIDE JOB.  Finding support is fine and certainly has its place, but NO ONE can do it for us; we are captains of our own ships and must turn to our own inner compasses for guidance that is correct for US.  I’ve made many mistakes in my life in which I was trying to “perform” for others approval (parents, mates, employers, etc)… which tends to result in agonizing guessing games, wavering and irregular progress of any substance, and the tragic abandonment of my SELF.  The “care and nurturance” of our SOVERIEGN SELF is THE skill to develop in these trying times.   Which is not to suggest, become a selfish tyrant with no concern for anyone else’s situation.  I’m suggesting that to be genuine in yourself – in the SOUL of your Self — ultimately aligns your soverign soul with the ONENESS of which we are all an integral part.  But no one can be “integral” to Oneness, the Great Unified Field, if one is NOT in integrity with one’s own sacred heart first.  Drop into the zero point of your sacred source and expand your awareness transdimensionally outward from there; see where it leads you. 

So as the world turns and churns around us, the only TRUE and safe sanctuary is the one within.  Even if everything collapses around us – EVEN IF that includes the very bodies we wear — our souls are our sanctuaries that remain such throughout eternity.  My advice in this moment (to my self as well to anyone reading these words) is to develop a deeply loving, intimate, open, communicative relationship with the inner advisor and divine entity who will never leave you — because it IS you, and it is also God, there is only separation in our mistaken minds.  This is the most important relationship to cultivate; it will only enhance all the rest of life in an ever-widening ripple through our relationships, our communities, our planet, our cosmos.  The soul is eternal; the rest of it is transient; even, perhaps, the firm ground (currently) beneath our feet.  Which reminds me — exercises such as the one offered by the Hathors in the Grid Report posted on this blog can help us stablize in the chaos.  Give it a try – daily, as often as it might occur to you.  Make it a reality.  You are sovereign; you are infinite; you are safe.

I ran this little excerpt from Barbara Marx Hubbard’s book Emergence in a newsletter I published a few years back.  The context then was, 911 had just happened.  I’m feeling prompted to reproduce it here, just as a reminder for us to meet darkness — in whatever guise it presents itself – with as much Light as we can muster. 

“To understand the meaning of our crises, it is necessary to view them with evolutionary eyes that hold the memory of 15 billion years of struggle to evolve.  From this vantage point, we can see that, although our current situation is dangerous, painful, and full of suffering, it is also true that the breakdowns we are witnessing on all levels — environmental, social, and personal — are actually evolutionary drivers, compelling us across our current threshold toward the New Humanity.  If we respond to these crises with creativity and compassion, our species will have taken a quantum jump.  We are discovering something very interesting – and a little shocking to our system.  We are finding out that what worked in the past for our survival — the very behaviors that kept us alive in prior times — are the behaviors threatening to destroy us now.”

I have a tendancy to return from meaningful ”down time” excursions (”out and about” while the body rests) with audio coming from… who knows where.  Not the physical environment.  For years, for example, I had a major series of highly strange nocturnal adventures — off-planet, ET experiences — and when they happened, I’d be “brought back” to my body (and 3D awareness) by the sound of ringing bells (except the time I returned to the roar of a black helicopter hanging outside the window, over the backyard, seriously).  ALL KINDS of ringing bells would bring me back, it was pretty wild.  Could be door bells - single rings, two-tone rings, melodic rings;  sometimes phone ringing - digital ringing, old-fashioned phone bells ringing, or cellular ring-tone sounds;  also sometimes buzzy rings or school-bell rings.  Any kind of bell I’ve ever heard was used somehow to rouse me from a significant out-of-body excursion of some sort, as though to ensure that I remember (and in my case, document) the experiences I was having, as opposed to just zoning out and sleeping them into oblivion.  Today, I’m still being “returned” to ordinary consciousness by sounds, but these days they tend to spoken messages, or sometimes music.

A few months ago I had a fantastic adventure going on one morning, in which I was with my mother (who is on the ‘other side’).  She was giving me a tour of the “new earth,” for lack of a better term, and providing clues as to my place in it (I’m ready for more details, Mom!!).  I’ve had many excursions to where we earthlings are ultimately heading (to my understanding) - which I interpret as a higher dimensional plane – 5D, actually.  So anyway, I’m out and about with Mom, and seeing some pretty cool “construction” going on at this site she brought me to.  It resembled a charming village in mid-manifestation.  The buildings were visually very appealing, and had zero ‘carbon footprint,’ presumably because in 5D all creation consists of light energy (as do we in our energy-body state), so there is no wasting of resources or bothersome issues like pollution.  Photon energy is what it’s all about (which will be abundantly clear to all, very soon), and it’s free & permeating; there is no place where it isn’t.  (I can hardly wait; this energy is inherently *immune* from corporate control.)  While, still, in higher dimensions we do enjoy creating things like buildings, landscapes… all kinds of environments.  And, no money down.  Ever.

What brought me back from this intriguing visit/tour with my mother was… yep… a “sound track” (interesting that in one of my professional realities I’m an audio producer ;-) which in this case was, of all things, the 80’s FIXX song, Saved by Zero.  Saved by Zero was playing in the astral around me and brought me into full beta consciousness, where I somehow ‘grokked’ that Saved by Zero was playing for me to understand (appealing to my rock-n-roll culturalization) that the solution to our troubles on this earth has to do with our realizing the existence and purpose of what’s called the zero-point field, or zero-point energy.  And, while I was familiar with the phrase, I never really understood just what it meant.  (I never understood the meaning of the song, either, for that matter!  It was compelling, mysterious, and very cool, but beyond that… ? )  A physicist I’m not… but I offer this post as my pedestrian pass at what ‘zero point’ means to ME.

It has to do with the ultimate creativity (meaning, the ability to create directly via the photonic ethers; where matter and antimatter meet and are shaped through emerging human skillfulness) and the heretofore unimagined *power* we actually CAN access.  We have been so tragically brainwashed to believe in limitations, that what we are REALLY capable of — when the notion is entertained at all – tends to frighten rather than inspire us!  We are AFRAID of our magnificence – our limitlessness — and this fear is our ultimate disability.  We spend 90% of our life force anguishing about out how to pull in enough MONEY in an increasingly challenging context, when actually we have every right and capacity to bypass this man-made (and elite-serving) device altogether, if we’d simply Wake Up.  We are like the circus elephants who lived chained to stakes in the ground, and when the day of liberation finally freed them, they STILL would not venture beyond the little 10-foot radius of their previous bondage because they simply didn’t notice they were free!  

This sounds like fevered “magical thinking,” but I say to you: life IS magical; infinite wonderousness is the very nature of life, and US.  We have just forgotten — and doom ourselves to accept the densest, lowest channels of ‘mass belief propaganda’ to dictate and re-dictate our experience in an illusional rut. 

For humans, entertaining notions of our true, divine inheritance tends to bring up “files” of things like being burned at the stake (or whatever trend-of-the-day, public-spectacle torture) to make sure we stay in line, and keep the entire population paralyzed and dumbed down as well.  Today, the manipulation of money (been to the pump lately — while oil magnates are reaping obscene record profits?) and the never-ending omnipresent onslaught of fear programming coming at us from ALL DIRECTIONS keeps us in check; keeps us intimidated and MANAGEABLE.  If, for instance, we ‘decided’ we didn’t have to buy into dictated limitations re: “what is” anymore, and levitated out our front doors for the neighbors to behold… what would happen?  Rampant panic would happen, unfortunately.  Which would then lead to an attempted lynching of SOME sort.  Lucky us; we are on this earth at a time when the fabric of its very nature will change before our amazed eyes, thanks to the galactic energies streaming in.

But, back to zero point. 

In my current operating system, zero point is a level of reality that is VOID OF HABITUAL 3D LIMITATION; it is lush with infinite potential.  It is the field of all things possible.  It may sound like an infinitessimally minute point in existence (being zero), but when you focus on it — tap into it with your mind – it springs open into quantum INFINITY, and awaits the staggering fertility of juicy & luminous IMAGINATION to fill it with energized, perhaps “impossible” ideas to manifest.  I think of zero point as a zero-friction energetic access portal to beyond-miraculous creation of the BEST that the divine human can pull off.   Zero point is the oven in which we bake the feast of our highest, divinest thoughtforms re: what life can BE into existence.   Zero point, and our access to it, is our passcode to the higher realms.  It is the point of entry into heaven on earth, the eye of the needle through which healed hearts will enter (and proceed to co-create) the kingdom of the transcendent future. 

It is our ticket to salvation; we will be saved by zero point, when our consciousness catches up to this understanding.  Please join me in contemplating this; it will accelerate our progress.

My beloved mom is pretty cool STILL ;-)   I honor her, and all my unknown foremothers before her, this Mother’s Day. xoxoxoxo ~ Whitehawk

Just a head’s up that I’ve posted Tom Kenyon’s latest Hathor message on its own page here (Grid Report Spring ‘08), as a ’supplement’ of sorts to my last post about the energies.  I respect Tom and his connection to the Hathors; may you also find this info useful in your navigation of the weirdness.

What’s the Buzz?

I mentioned in an earlier post how sleep has been so ‘different’ over the last several years.  I’m expanding on this theme here, now focusing on vibrations, or pronounced energetic buzzing, that I (and many others) have been experiencing increasingly over the past year or so while resting.   Before, I described my “new sleep” routine as sleeping for 3-4 hours, then being awake throughout the deep night hours, and then (hopefully) getting a little nap in the morning, ie, somewhere within the 6-7:30AM window.  I also ventured that the possible ’higher purpose’ behind these night cycles may be to gain access to (and greater awareness of) various in-between stages or planes of consciousness, as opposed to just clicking on and off (awake/asleep) like a binary switch.  Or, I’ll add now as an afterthought… maybe we’re just in some kind of training to require less sleep?  Perhaps one affect of this river of new energy is, it feeds us such a pure Source of energy (capitalized to imply ”God Source”), we won’t need so much ‘unconscious’ time.  

That ’awake half of the night’ business is actually my routine during half of the month; specifically, the half during which the moon wanes.  Then, as soon as the new moon phase slips into a waxing moon phase (becoming fuller), I start sleeping like a log until after the next full moon.  Sure, I’ll awaken during the night, but I won’t stay awake half the night as I do during the waning half of the lunar cycle.  Rationally, this seems backwards.  “Everyone knows” that when the moon grows full, energies tend to become more agitated.  Crime rates spike during full moons; sleep often gives way to tossing and turning throughout the night. 

If your sleep hasn’t changed in recent years, you may assume it’s a personal thing, to me.  But even if it is somewhat unique to me now (and actually, this is being experienced by quite a few at this point; I’ve got my ear to the rail on this phenom), it will be something more people will know soon.   I tend to experience unusual things a few years ahead of the curve, in these transformational times.  So, if I have an ongoing experience and talk about it openly as I do here, then someday others can hopefully be comforted by those of us who are processing, deciphering, and bushwhacking the trail “up ahead a bit.”  I know I absolutely depended on the voices of experiencers ahead of me re: all this weirdness!!  I’ve got a vast library of books here; luckily for the relative “newcomers,” much info is now online for free.

So, here’s what I suspect is happening during the really deep sleep I’m getting during the waxing moon cycle of every month, around which I’m bombarded by really pronounced energies.  Actually, I have two primary hypotheses:

1. During these deep sleeps, I receive energetic infusions from my “team” or family or soul group (take your pick) higher up the vibrational food chain; making adjustments that allow me to better adapt to all the changes happening in the ethers, in the grids, in the earth, and ultimately in US.  I suspect this is happening for everyone during sleep at this point; it’s just not in mass awareness yet.  Or maybe a person needs to be within a specific “frequency range” to receive these energetic influxes, or broadcasts from the galactic center.  This will be happening as humanity’s Light quotient increases over the coming years as this “program” continues.                          

2. Number 2 is still about the new energies… but does not involve receiving ”energetic transmissions” from my “team.”  In this alternate possibility, I am simply noticing, through my body, the new energies doing their galactic thing here on/through earth.  I am within a particular  vibrational bandwidth, or harmonic, so to speak, even more directly during waxing lunar cycles, and so I feel them pulsing or flowing through here, through myself.  Perhaps I am someone who is anchoring these energies here, by virtue of my prevailing “vibe” — I’m a resonant match, and as such I’m providing them a “body” to help them filter into the earth plane more and more.  I find this option quite possible, if not probable; ie, I’m among an increasing number of receivers/’distribution channels’.  There’s an entire population of souls providing various services to the planetary process, just by virtue of walking around here and “hosting” the incoming light, as living transformers.  Yep!  Some day I’ll delve into the concept of “batch karmic processing” (my self-created term for it when I realized what was going on years ago),  more widely known now as pathcutting.

The energies of this planet (and solar system… and galaxy… ) are indeed shifting in a massive upgrade NOW; of this I have no doubt at this point.  A substantial degree of acceleration has already occured, and more is certainly on the way as galactic alignments shift and this new ‘Light, frothy’ and highly accelerated energy assumes a greater presence in our transdimensional atmosphere. (This is all on a quantum level; this river of light is not in the form of the huge bubbles graphically depicted in the “Effervescent” post in March [or was it Feb]… but the energy is bubbly, clean, fresh, lucent, and highly expansive and evocative of higher frequencies, nonetheless.) 

The energetic night work feels like various vibrations pulsing through my body before and after sleep, during nocturnal awakenings, or sometimes when simply relaxing.  So I FEEL this, while not seeing the mechanics of it interdimensionally, as some do, during personal upgrades as opposed to universal.  You’d think, with my OBE and phasing background, this would be a cinch to tune into.  But no.  I just feel the vibrations as clear as can be.  Maybe you do also?  I know some are quite distressed by this activity.  I gently suggest… don’t fly into fear about this; just let it flow and know that everything eventually passes… this isn’t about being in danger; it’s about your biology evolving in a quantum leap!

Sometimes these energies feel similar to what one would feel if riding in a truck, for instance.  This actually approximates how it felt to me last night.  I might have said it felt like riding in a car, but these vibrations were more pronounced, with variations in smoothness, which I equate as more a ‘truck ride’ sensation than an automobile ride would feel.  On other occasions the vibrations have felt more like the “glug-glugging” of etheric liquid pouring through my being, or sometimes it’s more like one of those slow-motion wave desk toys — the glass frames with some colored liquid between the panes that glides in impossibly slow-motion waves back and forth once you give the frame an initial tip to activate.  Sometimes the vibes are just a strong and steady buzz, with no sensation of variance at all.  More like just being … well … “microwaved” comes to mind.  This in IN my body, not around me.  Every cell is DEFINITELY and distinctly being treated or even altered by some form(s) of energy that I understand to be “stepping up” my own frequencies somehow.  These are, generally speaking, the energies of transformation (or transmutation!) at work while the physical body is at rest – stimulating my DNA into further evolutionary activation.  And while this is happening, my body goes into really deep periods of rest, during half the month! 

So half the month is about exploring various states of consciousness, and the other half of the month is about energetic upgrades of the body.  That’s the basics of the “program” I currently seem to be on.

A Story About “Requesting”

Along related lines, perhaps this little story will interest you.  It’s about a time that I made a specific request a few years ago, and what happened in response.  I asked my guides/guardians/team — I have no “names” for these beings (perhaps it’s my own Soular level of Being ~ my monad) — to give me a tune-up that would enable me to embody more of my SOUL.  I wanted to embody more of the Light of my soul, my higher self, and all that would entail (wisdom, love, vision, maybe even health, etc...).  Our souls are vast & eternal; our body/minds are but a small, temporal, highly localized aspect of the soul, and I was seeking to bring more of my soular self ‘online’ in the physical plane.  

What happened next was quite amazing.  

This video inspired me to share it with you.  It demonstrates a technique combining mudras (Hindu hand postures) with lightbody portals for crown-to-ground energy alignment.  This technique was developed by chiropractor Dale Schusterman, who is apparently a student of the Kabbalah.  His book, Sign Language of the Soul, further explains his process for what in my language would be called lightbody activation – or lightbody balancing laying groundwork for further energizing down the road.  I found this refreshing and quite a complete little teaching in under 10 minutes.  The method is relatively new for me too, so I share it in the spirit of exploration rather than tried-and-true endorsement. 

More and more we are understanding that healing comes from the energetic into the physical… just as challenges to wellness originate energetically (ie, as in blockages to flow, ie, by emotional or psychological stuckness) before filtering into the physical and settling there. Energy first; form follows energy.  Energy is directed by consciousness.  Conscious energy management is the skill of the age to master!  … which the ideas in this video support.  Responses from The Field welcome, as always :)

Just a quick followup to my ‘earth changes strategic council’ post from April 4:  I just heard a rumor about China planning to ”create” a tsunami off the west coast (USA) within the next year, by causing an earthquake in the floor of the Pacific ocean.  I have no position, opinion, or substantiation to this rumor one way or the other… but I found it interesting to hear about a planned earthquake in the ocean after dreaming that very thing a couple weeks back.  Now I’m wondering if I possibly picked up on a human plot rather than divine intervention or a galactic initiative??  Or did it signify anything at all???   Agh.  Time will tell…

Zooming out, now, from the tiny scene on the tree branch (last post)…

From time to time I post (and eventually subsequently remove) videos I consider worth sharing… here’s the newest one to “experience” if you choose.  I believe this message is Pleiadian.  It’s quite a ‘mouthful’ for the narrator!  But if you give it a go, you’ll find at least parts of it will register, and — if you’ve read some of my missives regarding kundalini and galactic energies “setting off” our lightbodies, etc, you will pick up on some familiar resonance here.   Our ‘wiring’ is expanding, in response to energetic alignments calling it forth.  It’s a massive electromagnetic interplay… the call, the response, the next evocative level emerging, spiraling forth… quite a dance.

Greetings ~ and welcome.  I’m noticing quite a bit of traffic coming through here and thought I’d mention, it feels nice that you find this little cyber cache of my adventures in an emerging world ”click worthy.”

I have a new little vignette to share with you.  This happened the other day, but it wasn’t until a story-swapping session with a visiting friend last night (over Thai food, mm)  that what took place actually crystalized for me.  The topic came up when she shared an experience she had during a healing session (she has a healing practice in Montana, working out of a rustic mountain cabin – a setting which strikes me as achingly perfect).  Her experience was, she was in a session with a woman on her table, when she noticed a beautiful large-winged insect come to the window.  She continued her work with her client, when it dawned on her — wait, it’s winter, snow is everywhere, there’s no way an insect could be out in this climate.  This is when she realized it was a faerie!  She mentioned it to her client, who said she had some kind of rapport with faeries!  And, the healing session flowed in especially high amperage from that point on.

Her sharing triggered recall of an experience I had just the other day; I’m so glad she reminded me of it because I hadn’t ‘documented’ it yet, and I really do like to keep a record of all these curious goings-on in “jump-time” here!  So, this is what happened:

I was, as I call it, “zoning” one afternoon earlier this week.  It was one of those brief in-between moments when my mind emptied of whatever was in my immediate surroundings.  These experiences can (and do) happen in the space of a breath (as Einstein would attest), so my MO is to notice them, honor them, write them up, etc., because they are all pixels (or in this case… pixies?! lol) of a much bigger picture of existence that is finally starting to come together NOW after a lifetime of “odd” experiences.  And, btw, honoring them keeps the doors of expanded perception open.

Anyway, in this state, I suddenly found myself looking up at a very large black insect, on a very slim tree branch just over my head!  (Physically I was in the house, nowhere near an actual branch.)  I was startled by the SIZE of this thing… which looked like an ant, though my viewpoint was foreshortened, ie, looking at it from a sort of straight-on (front) yet awkwardly “below” perspective.  My startled mind yelped, “giant ant!?”  It looked to be something like 4 or 5 inches long; quite substantial.  Was I suddenly in a tropical rain forest or something??  

In the next moment, recovering from my ’start’ at seeing a huge bug overhead at close range, the next thing I saw was a little blue guy sitting on the branch directly next to mine